I'm trying to detach myself from you but you make it almost impossible.
You do all the actions of a lover, but then turn around and tell me, "You're getting too attached."
It makes no sense to me.
I should have seen it coming.
Everyone warned me, but I didn't listen.
I fell for you the day I met you.
And, like a fool, I believed you.
I trusted you while you lied to me.
I sang along when you softly beat bitter-sweet melodies on my heart.
I laughed as you toyed with my emotions.
Of course, I didn't know any of this for what it truly was then. But now I do.
You act as though nothing's changed, but everything has.
You hurt me more than I ever imagined was possible, and will continue to until the day I die.
I love you, my dear, forever. Nothing you say or do, no one I meet will ever change that fact.
Now my mask is broken and about to fall away. It scares me. It's been so long since I first put it on.
I loved you, despite my fears... crack one.
I trusted you, despite the warnings... crack two.
I held on, despite my tears... crack three.
I hope you're not around when the mask falls, I fear my words may hurt you.
Little One
4-27-01
