In about a week's time, I will be terminating my relief teaching career. At last. I'm really not trying to be mean to my students, but I have to admit that it has been a very trying time these 4 months, to be a teacher and friend at a same time to these kids only 2 years my junior. I didn't think it would be that difficult, but I think looking back on the past entries I have complaining about them, and the great sense of relief I'm feeling now, I think I have completely exhausted all my teaching aspirations for the rest of my life.

I think I'm gonna miss them though, however sadistic that might sound. I've always wondered if I can make it as a teacher. Afterall, my mom's a teacher and I thought she was exaggerating when she warned me not to join the teaching profession. Now I know. Mother knows best indeed.

Anyway, I'm looking forward to my bumming days after that. Imagine....waking up late. Going out whenever I want. Not having to plan what to wear everyday. Not having to take the bus with other smelling students early in the morning. Not having to get mocked at by my students. Argh, my bitterness gets the better of me...haha..

I have originally planned to go to Australia with a few of my hwachong friends this coming June. Unfortunately, too many things just happened that managed to change all their minds about it. Argh, so I'm now all alone. I want to go to Australia! All those planning, those beautiful plans we've made, that brought me so much hope. All gone...sigh...

Actually it's not so much going to Australia that I'm so desperate about. I mean, I'm still young, I've got plenty of time to plan another vacation to Australia. But I need one vacation now. Before I go back to studying. Finally a long holiday and how did I spend it? Spent 5 months back in school. I've only about 2 months left. I'm gonna need one month to prepare for school again. So that leaves me only one month to 1) bum, 2) finish my jigsaw puzzles and 3) travel (and I mean beyond Malaysia). I don't have enough time!

In the end, I might be going to Canada with Po Chin, or to Japan with my brother. With my brother....only shows how desperate I have become. Actually, I wonder myself I am so insistent about going on a vacation like this. Afterall, I'm probably going to live overseas for the next four years. Hmm...........

Erm...I can't be bothered to analyse my own psychology anymore. It's boring. I just want to go somewhere before I have to study again!