260901, 1745hr, illinois time.

yes, the lion dance performance came and went. actually, there was no lion. just the 3 of us playing the drums, and 3 cymbal-ists. but you have no idea how difficult it was for me, to learn all that the past 2 weeks. of course, i still suck. but heck, the casual audience can't tell anyway, i'm not going to beat myself up for this. there were no major screw ups [minor ones aplenty. heh] thank god, everything went relatively smoothly. so that's the one good thing for me today. yippee yeah.

but otherwise, today's really not much better than yesterday. i have a midterm tomorrow though [the dreaded communications midterm!] so i have no time to sulk. i wish i have time to sit down and write one long whine-y letter to my friends. i wish he would call me. i wish i have the time [and guts] to call him. [or actually, that's not such a good idea. hmm.]

sigh.

i wish my friends would ask me out.
i wish i can hang out with my friends.
i wish i don't have an exam tomorrow.
i wish everyone's not looking so solemn and stressed up.
i wish i can go watch a happy movie.
i wish i have my comics with me to read.
i wish i have time to even read.
i wish i can do happy things.
i wish i called home this morning.
i wish this CD isn't so sad sounding.

i wish i didn't start thinking of him.

i shall put up a picture here, just cos i stole it off another friend's website, and i want to display my loot somewhere. and i'm feeling extremely guilty about neglecting the rest of my website revamp [which includes the photo section] and people are curious about what i look like. not like i look like much. [by the way, talking about being much, it's a mere optical illusion that i look so busty in this picture. i don't usually erm, stand out this way.]

so that's what cindy looks like a month ago, under the nice warm sun, playing a fool with her friends, and extremely happy to have had some delicious cheesecake and brownies.

i wish i look like that now. happy.