250801, 1250hr, illinois time.

i woke up late for my lion dance practice today. again. eek...not that it really mattered, cos today's the first meeting we have this semester, and the interested newbies are here, we didn't have a very long practice. when i got there, shaun was just explaining the origins of lion dance and blah blah, which means i didn't actually miss much. the practice after that was quite tiring for me though. it wasn't physically tough, but emotionally demoralising and mentally exhausting. man, after a summer of inactivity, i couldn't remember half of the rhythms that i learnt before. shit.

but it felt good, playing the all 18 styles on the cymbals, in a demo to the newbies. at the end of it, my ears were buzzing, cos we all played so loudly. hahaha...

girls' night last night at the girls' place was quite nice though. we discussed a lot of things, they finally know about E, but i guess since they don't know him, and it really came and went so quickly, i think they will soon forget he ever existed. not like i can. hmm.

the girls have this really nice hifi set, so we played music through our gathering. some really soppy ones. like the richard marx songs. quite a weird mixture of feelings emerged from sitting in their couch listening to those songs. the girls are mostly romantically contented, and in comparison, i who just gave up E, i'm a lot more lonesome. i won't say i'm lonely, but indeed, at one point, they were comparing the ways to hold their guys' hands. ["yeah, but so uncomfortable like that!"] and i just realised that edwin never quite held my hand before. haha...it felt weird. i would even say, for quite a few moments like that, i actually felt sad.

but i still persist in my belief that this is not the right time for a guy anyway, especially guys who are not the right one. so then after i left their apartment, on my way home, without all that music, i felt ok again. they're so lucky, they've found the one. but oh well, mine will come. my mr right will come, hopefully some time before i'm forced to join sdu*, but heck, not now. cos i know i'll probably be ignoring him [and therefore *gasp* miss him] if he appears now. hahaha....

this has been such a crap entry. but that's just cos i'm hungry. i realise a vegetarian diet doesn't just consist of cereals and baby carrots. i'm gonna be experimenting with stir-frying some vegetables today. the ways and styles that my mom taught me always have some sort of meat in it, to add the flavour. i need to learn how to stir fry my vegetables without it tasting as exciting as plain water.