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Feeling... sick Eating: banana Reading: japanese song lyrics Listening: [computer] Japanese group hana*hana - 2 souls [discman] Alex To - I Believe Happiness of the day: woke up late, but still wasn't late for work. Event of the week: going malacca this weekend. poachie dear says she will make a voodoo doll for me. haha. cool....maybe in the shape of a bull. so someone else can make a doll of a matador, complete with pink socks and all, to pierce the bull in the heart. that would be so cool. i watched this really cool show last night - memento. it's a movie that runs backwards, in short snapshots, starting from a man shooting another man dead. and then it runs backwards to tell the story that led to this ending. it narrates the story of a man trying to hunt down the murderer of his wife. when trying to save his wife, he was hit on the head and lost the ability to make new memories, so he doesn't remember anything after his wife's murder. he takes notes in the form of tattoos on his body, polaroid snapshots, and notes on scraps of paper or on the back of the polaroid pictures. reminds me of the usual suspects, definitely. similar "omigod" reaction at the end of the movie. very intriguing concepts about memory. how should i live if i cannot make new memories? what is conditioning? how does the body know to do certain things instinctively, is that part of short term memory? how does one forget if one cannot make new memories? one part, the guy said, "i always cannot remember to forget you [referring to his wife], i must have burnt truckloads of your things. but i still cannot forget you. how should i forget, if i cannot tell the passing of time?" something like that. gosh....a whole new perspective altogether. people always say that whatever pains one has, time heals everything. but what if you cannot feel time? whatever incident it is, it feels so fresh, so new, because you cannot tell how much time has passed. or rather, you can tell...you can record the time, the date. but you cannot feel the time passing. because your freshest memory is the last one before the incident. i'm thinking maybe sometimes it's better not to remember certain things.... the show also questions truth...what is reality, what is the world to you - based on facts? based on your perception and your memory? which is more reliable? which is more easily manipulated? which can you trust? the world continues to exist with or without you. so does it matter what you perceive it to be? how important is memory is making judgments? very interesting show...i went straight to bed after i got home. had a pretty weird dream, but i don't remember it anymore. hmm. | |