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Feeling... sleepy Happiness of the day: watched a wonderful performance by The Art Fission and the T'ang Quartet. Event of the week: kakatan's birthday party on friday I went out with mom in the morning, minz in the afternoon and agnes at night. I'm so tired now. bleah. but nonetheless a very fruitful day. While having brunch with my mom today, she told me that she's going to buy me a necklace for my birthday. Not the typical lock-and-key design though, for the 21st birthday. She wants me to choose a design that I will wear everyday. What I really wanted to tell her was, even if she did want the lock-and-design, I will still wear it. I know that she's still sore about the bracelet that she bought me a couple of years back and that I don't wear much. But that's only cos I don't usually wear bracelets anyway. And cos I didn't have reason to feel homesick then. Through our discussion, I also concluded that I won't have a birthday party this year. I still remember how tough it was doing that party last year, so I'm not going to put myself through the trouble this year. The more I think about it, the less important this 21st birthday thing is, to me at least. Being a legal adult, doesn't make me less dependent on my family for support. Being able to vote doesn't make me more responsible than before. Being officially in womanhood doesn't make me suddenly more womanly than when I was 20. Of course I'm more of an adult woman now, but 21 is not a magic number. What's the big deal? I hope to spend my birthday meaningfully, rather than running around entertaining guests. I don't think I want any birthday presents either. I feel quite bad for missing my friends' birthdays while I'm away, and I think it's not fair for me to just pop home every summer vacation and expect them to remember mine. I would probably buy myself a present, just for the sake of indulgence. but expecting presents from others would just be wrong. * * * The afternoon with minz was great too, though we've not seen each other for a year, and we don't email regularly, or even icq regularly. You know the kind of friend, the kind that you don't really keep in contact with, though you vaguely know what's going on in each other's lives. Yeah, that's minz and me. Both of us are/were pretty good in Chinese, so the more natural thing for me to do now is to describe this in Chinese. In Chinese, our friendship is like jun zi zhi jiao dan ru shui -- the friendship of gentlemen is plain like water. Which has a connotations of simplicity and stablity, I guess. * * * The outing with agnes was originally planned as a group outing, to meet jinghua, but one by one, people dropped out. until jinghua also dropped out. it's so embarrassing, but it turned out that agnes and I actually had a dance performance to catch tonight, but we forgot. [or rather, I forgot] so we were sitting in this thai restaurant, happily eating our dinner really slowly to while time away, until some guy from the production called to ask if we were still coming. We rushed right over, and I'm so glad now we didn't miss the performance. It was much better than I expected. Just that I don't have enough energy to write about it now. In simple terms, it was a really cool show. And a wonderful conclusion to a wonderful day. I guess this is what my life will be like if I can be a taitai -- idling my time away with people I care about. heh. | |