| 0230h [060601]
Feeling... full...from dinner which was 6 hours ago. sheesh. Happiness of the day: got good books from the library today Event of the week: first arts fest show this weekend I think I'm a very silly person. I always think too much into everything, trying to analyse everything that he says, he does. Was he implying something? Did he sense something from me? Was that a read-between-the-lines type of conversation, or was he just really talking nonsense? Precisely because I think too much, it's difficult understanding my situation with him now. It seems so ambiguous, I can't take it. I hate games. I guess it is a good thing he doesn't even know that I have a website, so he won't be able to know the kind of effect he has on me. Not like he needs to read this to know anyway, he probably already knows, I'm so predictable. argh. He said that his friends said that he was arrogant, and I did comment that confidence and arrogance are sometimes interchangeable. In this case, in handling our friendship, I would say that he is a arrogant man, who probably thinks that I like him. He doesn't drop hints, but everything he says sound like a hint, because of the assumptions he make - assumptions based on his arrogance. He assumes that he will call me a lot when he goes to the States to study. He assumes that whatever plans I have, we'll have more fun if we doing it together. that it's ok to call me everyday, and tell me that he just woke up and wanted to talk to me. that I'm still angry with him, even though I said it was ok. isn't he such an arrogant man? Yet, there's a vague feeling of pride that he wanted to talk to me. That he wanted to go to the library with me. That he didn't want me to stay angry. If I'm making too many assumptions about us, it's because of him. He flirts with such a flair, even I have to admit defeat. But I don't want to fall for him...not now anyway... from past experiences, a guy being nice to me does not neccessarily mean that he's interested. And loving a guy who doesn't feel anything at all, is not pleasant at all. how should I know if this guy is really just a very good flirt? Or that he's playing a fool with me because he sensed my positive impression of him? Or possibly, he might already have hinted that he's not interested, only that sole hint got lost somewhere in the flirtatious batter. I've only known him for a year, and seen him no more than twice. Yet, he causes such confusion. That's why I said I'm a silly person. I'm thinking of a person who doesn't even know me well enough. | |