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Feeling... awake, surprisingly Happiness of the day: Agnes woke me up this morning with her call from Singapore. Event of the week: flight home on 13th May I can't think very coherently. But I feel like I need to record these things down: ********** Yesterday, after I whined about my exams here in the journal, I happened to see both my brothers on icq. And we chatted for a while. It was so different chatting with my two brothers, which reflected my relationship with them. My younger brother and I were talking about making our dad pay for our handphones, about the script I was supposed to have finish writing by now, about little things like that. And our conversation was peppered with funny laughing sounds. On the other hand, talking to my elder brother was as contradictory as before, on one hand getting exasperated at being constantly insulted by him, and yet on the other hand, feeling touched by his concern and guidance. Talking to them actually made my day, and took my mind off those 2 stupid exams altogether. ********** I spent the rest of the afternoon not doing anything, stationed myself in front of the TV, though I don't remember what I actually saw. I read half a book. Finished half of Alvin's cake. Got bitten by a bug while lying on the couch. Irritated everyone in the house by not studying, since they all were. Felt totally lazy and extremely contented. After that, I went out for dinner with Shaun, at this surprisingly classy restaurant on campus. We chatted the rest of the night away. That's where the interesting things emerged... one, I found out that I really wasn't being overly sensitive when I felt that someone was pissed at me, during my winter trip in my freshman year. That guy was primarily irritated by my childishness during that trip, I think. I felt this hostility the whole time, and I didn't understand why. Now I finally do...I probably should have guessed, and I actually did, but at least now I finally know. And at least I don't think he's irritated anymore. Erm, I hope not anyway. Two, I found out people's [or at least, Shaun's] initial impression of me - whiny. My goodness. I was hurt, but actually I would say I'm not surprised, knowing how I tend to act more bimbotic in front of people I'm not familiar with, and hence more whiny and stupid. But it still came as a blow to hear it, especially since freshman year was also the time when I had that crush on shaun. I hope I've grown out of that bimbo phase. I'd rather go back to the shy quiet phase...at least I don't piss people off being quiet. ********** This morning, I was supposed to call home. But I didn't, because I couldn't wake up in time. My alarm clock ran out of battery beeping...it probably beeped for an hour, I don't know, but I didn't hear it. By the time I got woken up by Agnes, it was already 11pm+ in Singapore, and I don't usually call later than 11pm. So I just talked to Agnes, gave up on calling home. Anyway, I was so shocked to hear her voice when I groggily picked up the phone. We got cut off twice, and both times I called her back. It was just so fun talking to her, as if we're not separated by thousands of miles. She updated me on some stuff, to make sure I can keep up with the gossips when I go back to Singapore. Tried to interrogated/threatened me for information about Shaun. Promised to go pubbing with me in Singapore. Promised to go sing karaoke too. Funny...I don't remember why she called. But I'm glad she did... ********** Instead of studying, I spent a long time today cooking. Cooked dinner, baked a pie, did miscellaneous kitchen-related things. All just to not study. Sometime in the afternoon, I went for a review session for wednesday's exam too. I promptly fell asleep even before the lecture started proper, so it wasn't helpful at all. The good thing that came out of that review session was that I met one of the european guys who went on the backpacking trip during springbreak. He's going to Japan for an internship, I'm freaking jealous. ********** I can't think properly. I can't really make a summary of my weekend. Little things happened, little things occupy my mind. I lost 3 out of 6 beads I have on my bag, very irritating. I just realised that I lost this amulet I got from Japan, from losing my wallet some time ago. Very sad. I saw this really hot guy on a really hot bike. Po Chin's gone to Washington, and is not on icq anymore. The blueberry pie I baked didn't turn out too pretty. I have a pimple outbreak now. I have a cut on my thumb. All little things. Short sentences. Fragmented memory. I'm kinda confused now. I think I should go sleep...maybe I'll dream of my brothers and I, in Singapore singing karaoke with Agnes and that guy who was irritated by me, eating a blueberry pie and talking about the european guy who gave me an amulet from japan. That would be nice. | |