Bastards

0100h (180101) Mood: like shit. Fact of the day: Portugal is the world's largest producer of cork. event of the week: swing dancing. Shit day. Basically. Let's make a list of what pissed cindy off today. 1) Being late for my first class of the day. Not a good start to the day. 2) Having a mean usher head, who is essentially a lazy bum and I have to take crap for her own error. 3) Being physically very tired and having pulled an arm muscle while swimming. 4) Eating crap. 5) Being basically betrayed and abandoned. Argh. Not a good time to be writing this, cos I don't even have the energy to put my thoughts together. And no mood to elaborate on any of those either. There're of course certain circumstances that made some of things a lot more infuriating than they seem right now. Yes, I know I eat crap a lot and that usually doesn't piss me off...just today... I'm a little overwhelmed by my own emotions sometimes, in the sense it will not make sense if I write it down, cos I simply don't have words in my head as readily as some people do. But I'm essentially a feeling person and when I feel pain, I know it's very real. I'm going to sleep. Tomorrow I start afresh again. I probably won't stop eating crap. But maybe I'll stop feeling crap.

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