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Mood: pretty good Fact of the day: Arsenic is a very common pollutant of water. Very very common. event of the week: swing dancing. Wow, a week since I last updated. Man, this is not the longest time I've not written anything down, but it's the longest time I've been thinking about writing everyday and still have not done anything about it. Haha...I'm amazed.
And it's not like I'm very busy either. True, I had some jetlag for the first few days, but actually I basically allowed myself to jetlag, cos I could sleep anytime, wake up anytime I wanted anyway, so it wasn't a big deal. But luckily cleared up just a couple of days ago. Just in time for my first school day of this term. And a freaking 8am class too.
I can't help but bitch about this. Every single person I emailed today knows about it, because I was so frustrated. I thought I had this 8am lab on tuesdays [actually I wondered for a long time whether I actually do today, since this is the first day of school, but decided that I probably do]. And of course, I was wrong. I had 3 hours to burn. 3 hours which could easily have been spent at home doing all those things that need to be done. Bleah. And I have to wake up for 8am classes almost everyday of the week this semester, so I would really have appreciated a free morning. Oh well.
And talking about dreams, I've been having very bad dreams. They're not dream in the sense I wake up very scared, but they disgust me. They make me want to wake up, but somehow, I was unable to. I don't quite remember what my dream last night was, but well, it was disgusting enough to make me wake up before my alarm clock rang.
The night before last, I dreamt that I was this guy, who undertook the task of looking after this woman, and her child. I'm not the father, but I think it was something like I promised the father to take care of them. We were supposed to return to some hometown or something, and so it basically a really long journey through some grassland, some hills. This part of the dream has a very strong green theme.
Then the color theme changed in the middle. To sort of a brown theme, as we arrived in some kampong. It was pouring, but the water was disgustingly brown and weirdly filthy looking. All the houses were old and rickety looking. We took shelter at this one particular house, where there was a slightly protruding roof over the door. But as we basically sat down on the wooden doorsteps, I noticed that the house was deserted and the furniture inside the house were very badly destroyed, somewhat like by some wild animals or something. There were some cloth and whatnot on the floor which looked like they might have been ripped off some humans or something. There wasn't really blood or what, but in my impression, it was a very disgusting scene. The woman and the child did not see anything, but I saw, and actually already felt like puking. But I controled my urges and fortunately, the child noticed that the house we were supposed to go to was just 2 houses down anyway. So we decided to leave our shelter and just go straight to our destination.
When we arrived, I found my aunts basically spring cleaning the place. There were huge bulky cleaning devises around, like a huge vacuum cleaner blocking the stairs. And amazingly, the house looked exactly like the house I'm staying in right now. My cousin was in the kitchen, cooking or something, and when I asked where my mother was, she basically growled and shouted something. I don't remember what, but I remember it was quite vulgar and she was quite.....scary. Then my aunt comes down the stairs, passed me the phone and said my mother was on the phone. [By this time, the woman and the child already disappeared. erm. Probably a different section of the dream, I don't know.]
Then she turned around and I saw something very very disgusting. Basically I saw my aunt's brains hanging out of her head. And there seemed to be an animal like digging into her skull. It turned out to be a rat! Aaaaarrrggghhh...it was really revolting. And then there seemed to be a realisation that the town is being overrun by rats, which seem to eat up people. From within. And suddenly all around me, I saw people being eaten up. One guy had a rat coming out of his anus, and he wouldn't stop bleeding. Another guy had a rat burst out of his chest, and I seemed to be able to see the heart still beating.
Utterly disgusting. And then I looked down. And I saw my own guts lying in the open. And a rat gnawing at something within me.
I just couldn't get beyond this point, and I keep on looking at the rat eating me up. I didn't feel any pain. Though I felt like throwing up. [as an afterthought, I wonder what would have happened if I threw up. Like would I even have a stomach to throw up from, know what I mean? Hahhaa...]
Finally, I woke up. Earlier than I needed to, but I didn't want to go back to sleep. At all. Eeeww..
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