| 1030h
Mood: sleepy Fact of the day: More people are scared of spiders, than death. event of the week: Entering Hell Week. For definition, refer to last entry. I should be studying now. But heck, no mood. I'm still quite tired, but today's not the day to rest. In less than 24 hours, it's already be Hell Week. Goodness me.
But I'm very distracted. I'm waiting for a very important email.
He said he'll email me by the weekend, so I'm just waiting. His emails are always so long, funny and absolutely entertaining. So heartwarming to know he's willing to spend the time typing such nice emails to me, with his busy schedule. He's away now, away in St Louis for an interview, but before he left, he dropped me a short email, to tell me to wait for his return and not to worry.
I don't know why, but I miss him so much. I forget how many times I've checked my email, but his email has not come yet. I'm worried...both about whether he's ok, and about how I can allow myself to feel so much for this one guy that I've known for less than a month.
I won't say I'm falling for him, but he is important to me. A few days ago, the server in my house was down, and I couldn't check my mail..I don't know why I was so impatient, but I went to Shaun's place to check my mail instead. I felt so sure that his mail would definitely be waiting for me. At the risk of pissing shaun off too, since shaun needed to use his computer for his homework. But I felt happy. Almost high on nothing, smiling and grinning like little girl. I was almost worried that perhaps I was being silly for taking so much trouble to check for that one mail. But finding it indeed in my mailbox, and reading it made me feel like it was all worthwhile. He's never disappointed me. Until now. Why has he not emailed yet? Sigh.
My heart feels very much alive, beating so hard reading his past emails, yet aching so hard waiting for his return. I wish my heart will take a break though, and let my mind take over for a while, cos I freaking need to study. *breathe* Wait. Let me check my mail just one more time.....
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