Sudden inspirations or cravings:
Love myself.

Somehow, death surrounded me for the past few days. Other than the 2 RJC girls who drowned in Pulau Ubin during a school camp, my student's best friend was also murdered in his own house. I cannot take this much tragedy..

I've always been easily affected by deaths. Especially for people around my age or younger than me. I remember the time when a schoolmate was killed in a car accident: I bawled like a baby till my mother had to ask me very tenderly if she was my best friend. It became a joke when I had to tell her that the girl didn't even know me.

There was also a time when I read my schoolmate's kid brother's orbituary. I didn't really cry maybe because I knew that he had cancer. But I was still upset for the whole night.

And now, 3 deaths in just a time span of 3 days?

I think the boy who was murdered affected me more than the two girls who drowned. Maybe it was because of the way he died.

He was probably on his way to bathe when he opened the door for his "friends" to enter. There was no evidence of forced entry. Probably secret society related, he was being interrogated and a plastic bag was tied over his head , his hands tied up behind his back. When his mother got back, he found him kneeling down, already unconscious. Eventually he died before he reached the hospital.

What a horrible way to die. I feel for the mother finding her only son's limp body on the floor; I feel for his family who would have to survive this tragedy amidst the festive atmosphere of Chinese New Year. Most of all, I feel for this poor 14-year-old boy, trying to breathe through the plastic bag, trying to live.

Damn it. I wish I can make things better, I wish people don't have to suffer like that.