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Mood: dilligent Fact of the day: Watermelons are believed to have originated from Egypt. Drawings of watermelons have been found in ancient Egyptian drawings. event of the week Going for Links2000 in Philadelphia this weekend. I'm fine now. Don't worry.
I got over this V-day incident much faster than I thought. Well, of course, one of the primary catalyst to my quick recovery would be the fact that I don't really have time to handle this.
I have too much work to do. This trip to Philly is forcing me to finish one week's worth of work in about 2 days. Which is horribly stressful. I think I'm not gonna be able to make it, which means I will have to bring work over to Philly. I wish I didn't have to. I really wanted it to remain purely as a social trip. But apparently, my full time student identity catches up with me no matter what I do.
Busy with all work, I didn't really have much time to put too much depressing thought over this incident. But whatever time I had, the more I thought about it, the more I realised how childish this whole comedy has been.
Yes, I feel hurt, I said hateful things to him, I made it sound like he's committed the most horrible sin, like he's totally destroyed me. Well, for one night, he did. I cried my eyes out, I blamed myself for being weak enough to allow myself to get so hurt. But does it really have any lasting effect on me? Probably not much.
Whether he will remain a good friend, is another matter altogether. But I realise I've probably been overly dramatic about everything else. It's true that I was almost over him before I told him I liked him. In fact, I was so close to success, I think this little incident just managed to accelerate the whole process. My eyes are now open, my mind is clear. Isn't it obvious? It was not the rejection that hurt me. Aha. I'm so proud of myself now.
Anyway, I still have my computer programming homework to do, my french essay to write, lots of reading to do, worksheets to complete. I don't really have time to do this hateful thing anymore. Even if I'm emotionally devastated, I don't have time to take care of it now. It takes too much energy and mental exertion to keep up with this.
Besides, since I'm actually feeling ok now. It's childish to insist on dwelling on it, isn't it?
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