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Mood: a little depressed actually Fact of the day: I hate Java programming. event of the week Shaun's birthday this saturday. I'm taking this certain computer programming course this semester, dealing mainly with Java programming. And frankly speaking, I hate it! I was just working on my homework just now and damn nothing works! Am I stupid or is the computer stupid? Fine, don't answer that. Obviously I am the stupid one. Damn it.
I've still got 3 more short essays to write, one more draft to finish, 2 chapters of dance to read, 1 french essay to read and tonnes to emails to reply. Really, I feel like replying the emails first, but I know I can't. I'm so sick of doing homework all the time. I just barely managed to complete my engineering homework last night, immensely pleased with myself for finishing this piece of homework in advance, until I realised that if I didn't finish it last night, I would have too much work accummulated for today. Somehow, relief became a much stronger emotion.
Yet, I cannot complain that I am stressed. I think I'm taking this pretty well. I'm working all the time, working hard, working consistently and the list of homework still doesn't seem to get significantly smaller. I should be feeling totally depressed right now, yet I'm not. I don't think I am anyway.
Instead, all my friends are stressed up. Lynn looks stressed up all the time, Ming was stressed up over both our summer plans and her other commitments, Po is having problems with her math, her tight schedule and dunno what else, some other people are upset over other stuff....people are freaking out all around me. And there's nothing I can do but ask, "Hey, you ok? Need help? Relax a little ok?" or something as useless as that. I don't know...think everyone is suffering from PMS.
I hope I've been a good listening ear for them.
Not likely they will head the "hey, relax" advice that I give, but hopefully they will feel better just ranting to me. It's so weird, hearing people tell me how much work they have, how much troubles they have. It's weird because sometimes, I look at the worries that they are talking about and I realise that their worries are nothing in comparison to what I have to handle, or another friend's problems. Maybe they should just calm down a little and they will realise they are getting stressed up over worthless things. But something tells me I will probably offend and irritate them further if I say something like that. Hahaha....it's like what Ally McBeal says, something about "my problems are bigger because they are mine".
I don't know..I'm getting a little affected by all these people freaking out all around me. I feel so anxious for them, whatever that they are anxious about. I wish I can do something, but really I know I can't.
Just like nobody can help me with my Java programming! Argh!!!
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