1520hr
Mood: actually pretty good
Fact of the day: Tom Hanks is the only one to have won 2 consecutive Academy Awards for Best Actor.
event of the week playing pool this friday.
My horoscope says that this is a month of planetary eclipses for me. I have no idea what eclipses have to do with anything either, but this is what it says:
Eclipses level the playing field and improve communication through feedback. They always reveal some sort of truth and give us an epiphanic experience, so you can expect to receive enlightenment. Eclipses always help us find the puzzle piece that we may have ignored or overlooked�so be thankful for that information. [............] Emotions will be polarized. You could be holding your sweetheart's hand and drinking champagne together, or slamming the door and saying you'll never come back. There will be no middle ground. [........] If your relationship ends, whether it was your decision or your partner's, you should accept it and move on. Goodness knows you have tried your very best to make things work. What matters is that you should never be with someone who doesn't love or appreciate you. Life is too short to be with someone who doesn't value you, dear Leo. You deserve so much more.
And amazingly, on hindsight I have to say this is pretty accurate! The bouts of depression I have experienced for the past few weeks has given me time to be alone and really think about what's truly important to me. And finally, I made the decision -- to let go. Ages ago, I've made the same declaration. But now I'm more sure than ever. As much as I wish things could work out, I just realise I'm much better off on my own anyway.
I've tried so hard, but I guess love doesn't come the easy way and I'm already tired of the emotional wounds I've inflicted on myself. No, I am not bitter, I am not upset. Instead, I'm glad. I'm glad I can finally stand on my own, with pride and self-respect. I don't need him. I don't need anyone.
Aaahh...I feel such internal peace just knowing I am finally truly independent. True love can wait...I still have a lot of things I want to do!
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