He's become a better friend these few days, being all sensitive to me being depressed, though he has no idea why I was so upset. It's such irony..that the most communicative and longest conversation I've ever had with him came after I have to extract myself from this crush.

During our long talk, I commented, "I seldom have any extreme emotions."
"Isn't that quite sad? Life is about emotions what."
"I don't know....maybe I'm emotionless..."
"Have you ever felt heartache before? That pain in the chest..ouch.."
I knew he was thinking about his break-up with his longtime girlfriend again... and the timing was almost comical. I felt it. The ache in my chest. Ouch.

But he's only a good friend now. I cannot afford to indulge myself anymore. He's a great guy. But he's not mine....