Shadows

(1993)

Your memory is a shadow.
It seems to follow me
Wherever I go,
Anywhere.
A shadow that never leaves,
No matter what happens
I always know that it is there.

It's cold and dark, in this shadow
That lurks behind me silently,
It blocks out all the things
I want to see.

Like a friend it keeps me company,
And it's there when I need it
Because it's a part of me.
And you.

If you'd never been there in my life
I wouldn't have this shadow,
To remind me of the times we shared.
Because this shadow
Is of you.

 

 

Wind

(1993)

The wind is blowing beyond the window where I ponder,
All my thoughts and my dreams are filled with you.
The cold, gusty storm outside
Reminds me of you.
So cold and sly,
Creating so much havoc as it blows on by.

You claim no comparison?
If so, what can I do?
Why do you refuse me knowing the real you?
Where is your feeling, your colour, your warmth?

Like the wind, you seem invisible
Never here for me when I need you most.
Going from place to place
Never knowing where or when.
Not caring who you harm along the way.

Don't be like the wind.
Don't leave without warning ~
Or without a Good-bye.

 

Before Sleep

(2004)

As I Wake

(May 2004)

As I wake up and reach beside me
The linens feel so cold.

The warmth of your body is not there.

Yet, I can press my face to the pillow and almost imagine the way your skin would smell.

I curl the pillow close to me and imagine it is you that is in my arms.
That it is you lying there -
Smiling at me
Comforting me
Loving me.

I stop and wonder if you ever think of me
As I lie here thinking
Wishing you were here again, pressed against me.

I dare not get out of bed for fear that I'll wake up and have imagined you.

I did imagine you.

You weren't there - touching me the way I remember you touching me.
The warmth of your hand in my hair
The soft caress of your lips on my breast
The sound of your moan against my mouth as you kissed me hungrily
Desperately.

It was a dream.

I close my eyes and will myself to find you again,
But you're gone
Until tomorrow.
Until I find myself back in my own mind's eye
Where I can find you again,
Touch you again.