The past couple days, I've been thinking about the fact that I have not gotten sick this semester. Normally, I get strep throat every year right around the beginning of the fall semester. Then, I get an ear infection with vertigo about half way through the semester. I also get a kidney stone around Thanksgiving, and I get the "crud" right around the time that I have finals. This has been my MO since I started college, but this semester, none of that has happened. I attribute this to a couple things. 1st - I take so many vitamins now that they probably help to keep me healthy. 2nd - Since I've had this surgery, I've become relaxed, and I don't get stressed out over everything. I used to stress out over every little thing, but now, I don't let myself "sweat the small stuff" *LOL* I like myself and let me be myself w/o worrying that others won't like me. I'm more confident in my abilities and don't constantly stress and worry that I'm not doing things the way some one else does them, thinking that other person always knows better than me.
I'm soooooo glad that I have started to "chill." I was a pretty uptight person about certain things before this surgery. Not b/c stuff bothered me, but b/c I was so scared to let others get upset or bothered when things aren't done the way they want. I've realized that I'm not in control of the world and everyone in it, and that is ok. I was bit of a control freak before. That aspect of my personality hasn't completely gone away, but I'm learning what I can and can't control and how to not stress over the things I can't control, which is an AWESOME step for me!
I think I've also mentioned that I don't stress out over school anymore as well. For years, I wouldn't allow myself to have too much fun or make time friends or boyfriends b/c I was so obsessed with making school my #1 priority. Well, this semester, school has not been my #1 priority, and I like that. I managed to get everything done and do well even though I did not stress over every little assignment and test. There were a couple times when I was little worried (but not enough to do anything about it) that I had become too relaxed in regards to school, but it has all turned out A-OK :-D I have my last final tomorrow, and then, I will officially have completed graduate school.
I still don't have a job for the next semester, which has me a little worried, but I haven't really bothered to stress about it. I've started putting more things into God's hands and letting him deal with them rather than stress and worry over things that I have no control :angel: I have the necessities covered. I'm moving in with my sister-in-law and nieces; I get free room and board, and in exchange, I will be a free babysitter for my sister-in-law. My parents are keeping me on their car and health insurance until I get a job and can get my own. I'm in the sub system for Conroe, and my sister-in-law is still working on getting me a job for next semester; it may only be a half day job, but that is better than nothing. I have been told that I have a job for August, and I have people in my life that can help take care of me until then :-D The old me would be stressed out up to her ears over this whole situation, but the new me is taking everything with a grain of salt and leaving it all up to God. I'm doing pretty good!
Well, I guess I have rambled enough *LOL* Just thought I would share a few thoughts about my life with all of you. |
