152002

1:49 P.M - HELLO ALL~! and good morning to you guys. Yes it's still morning for me cuz i juss woke up about an hour ago. Isn't that pathetic? yes...i missed yet another piano lesso. But...i couldn't help it..when i woke up around 8 o'clock i felt as if i were going to throw up and i felt like i had a million bruises over my body. Geez~ Well...i'm still continuing with the last book of Harry Potter....well the fourth book to be exact. It's prettie good. AH! I wonder if we're going to have school Monday. I knoe i'm weird, but i wish we had school Monday....because i need to find out how i can raise my grades up A.S.A.P. I prob won't be able to cuz there's only a week until exams and all that shua~ yeah yeah. I can't help that i'm really stupid. PLUS i have to study for the SAT IIs...although i signed up for both the writing and Math IIC tests i think i'm only going to take one. That sucks!!!!!!!!!!! OH wellz.....it's for the colleges. Geez.....i feel so stupid. Some college news for you guys who are interested...i forget the name of the college that Melinda got accepted to, but it'sin Cleveland. Chris Sinay has gotten into Georgetown. I decided that i shouldn't announce the colleges that ppL got deferred or rejected from cuz it can be embarassing....cuz i knoe i won't be telling which colleges i didn't get into. OH WELLz......sorrie you guys if i did annouce that you got rejected or deferred..i wasn't thinking on my part! Welps~my goal for today is to do at least 1 or 2 sections for my booklet project..translate this song by S#arp titled *my lips....like warm coffee*...it's a really good song...but a really hard song to translate. The Korean language is such a prettie language in describing how you feel. I mean in english....how many ways can you say i love you? I mean i love you is juss i love you...but i think it is MUCH prettier to say I LOVE YOU in Korean......it's *sa rang hae*~ but rang is pronouced differently than it looks......aiite.....peace~ttyl~

3:15 P.M. - I translated the song by S#ARP....it's awesome....i mean...it makes more sense in Korean...but it truly has a meaning about relationships..about breakups, etc. Breakups and basically anything in life is juss a mere process of learning from it and growing up.....this is definately my favorite song of this year....of January...hmhm..........i'm thinking of something more to do! hehe......the lyrics are kind of long so bear with me here!

9:19 P.M. - eh...i juss got finishing watching the SUH SAE WON show.....god was the featured guest and it was funnie...-n- cute...i think gae saeng is the cutest :-D But the oldest guy that is currently dating Han Go Eun....forgot his name (cuz i'm not that interested) but anywayz..he was talking about love and how he wouldn't wanna change the person and try to understand the person and if you suceed in doing this....you learn to understand each other and learn to accept and love each other....i think he's right. You shouldn't try to change someone to love and the other shouldn't change for someone even if you do love them. And if you can't accept the fact that they won't change or you don't like something about them and can't accept the fact that they are like that and that is what makes up that person, then it's not meant to be.

Amy isn't feeling to well...i would act like her if my mom did that to me. I totally understand! The diary thing....OMG~ i wrote that i hated my mom once because she did something to me (i actually forget , but that's most likely) and she yelled at me for days on how she never knew a kid that hated their own mom...riiiiiiiiight...there are a lot of ppL who can't stand their mom or dad. Whatever~ why can't mom's juss keep it to themselves and learn from what their child says...in my mom's case she thinks she's perfect all the time~ OMG like today while i was driving...i don't evr want to drive with her again! I mean sure..i'd prob try to read my daughter's diary, but i'd keep it to myself and not say anything because that's what she thinks...geez....i've prob gone through everything she has gone through...stress from friends, guys, and i'd hate to admit it, but parents.......I definately want to become the perfect parent...someone who will always be there for a daughter/son and never stop showing them my love.....*sigh*....how hard is that to ask from parents these days? I think it's b/c parents are juss selfish...esp. asian parents..*sigh*~ ttyl~

If you've ever been in love before i knoe you feel this beat
if you knoe it...don't be shy and sing along

Don�t cry, it�s already a thing in the past
It�s only a point in life that goes against the rules
As you live life, it�s a point that everyone goes through
It�s only a process to become an adult.
YO! It�s only a process.

Please don�t do this, saying that it�s the end.
I�m always only starting
You know me well and that my heart that loves you is growing more and more

I wanted to become the ground that you walked on.
For a moment to warm my lips like
Warming coffee�that�s what I wanted to do
I�m probably still making you cry
I love you...besides my heart loving, why�
Even this way, maybe I needing a lot, why�
Right now, even if I�m not meeting with you
I�m probably making you cry. I don�t know why I don�t like it

You know a lot about me�
While I was loving you�you threw all of me away
Do you not knoe me while I�m walking alone crying?
Therefore, please don�t do this�

hey girl! Can you please tell me why! no?
you don't have to lie and it hurts me..
in side but i want you to know..

ha ha! Yeah, so in which heaven
My small love now will say that they love me
The meaning, for a moment made us go through trouble�
It went past us�to me you were (way)
Our (way)
We can�t turn around us�
I know now that we can�t turn around
You know, do you know that I loved you?
A long time ago, like a song for a long long time I will cherish you, yeah�
Just for you, my love is like this.

Remember I miss you
However, I am happy
Now you will still be able do well
Like how hard the practice was, next time for sure
You will avoid guys like me
Hopefully it will be a thoughtful, smooth and warm guy
He will completely satisfy your parents
And make them comfortable/peaceful
Without one single tear to cry�
Without hurting a single time
Without pain, I hope you will love peaceful/comfortably

Even in dreams, I don�t want it
Don�t go away
I could even die
I�m happy this way�do you not know?
I don�t want anything
Are you going to make me live in a memory with our past love
My love will probably continue to grow
Are you really going to leave me this way?

Don�t cry, it�s already a thing in the past.
Although it may hurt to let go
It�s only a point in life that goes against the rules
Although it may be a time that is longer than any other
As you live life, it�s a point that everyone goes through
Although you won�t be able to accept it easily
It�s only a process to become an adult.
YO! It�s only a process.
~S#arp's *My Lips...Like Warm Coffee*