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Baby I remember. The first day it snowed
From somewhere, your glittering eyes were watching me
With both eyes were filled with dew, I turned away from
I didn�t wanna see myself turning away

You were always looking out for me. More than anyone else you worried about me.
You gave me courage to let me fly further

But I have to let go of a person like you � your two clear eyes
Now I no longer want to show my tears for you

*I�ll be loving you forever~ I will miss you
I�m afraid that I will lose you one day
I didn�t know you. I didn�t know what I wanted
Alone, I always longed for you

(I~ Whenever I�m longing for you, without letting you know, somewhere I�ll for long you, like now)

Whenever I see you, I want to cry.
Even if we both want each other, is it still the end?
Let�s not forget the memories we had together
With you, I was happy~ I love you
Please don�t go girl

*Repeat

I hope you will at least be happy
But please remember our memories we shared

I�ll be loving you forever~ I will miss you
I�m afraid to hurt your fragile heart.
Don�t be sad that I won�t be able to watch over our love til the end of time
I pray that you will be happy
~SechsKies's *Bye*

8:28 P.M. - Jon woke me up around 11:00 a.m. and was asking about his pants. He prob thought "how unprofessional" Anna's Dad's cleaners is for not having my pants on time. Sorrie Jon~ Our lady who does the alterations didn't come thursday or something and it was delayed....but i'm glad you called later to get them. Hehe. Anywayz...today i went over to Shery's house b/c she and Laura wanted to copy what i had for the worksheets biology. Hehe..it took me about 8 hours (maybe more b/c i was distracted by IMs when i was doing this in the middle of the night during my Christmas break) yeah~ anywayz, It took them about 2 hours..then we all had to take a break (even though i didn't do jackshit) and we ate...talked...talked about guys (well more of how i seemed to get guys one after another) LoLz~! Well too bad i don't get any of the foine ones (although Laura thought that Mark was cute, while Shery thought that Andrew was cuter) I guess it's b/c Laura is Korean...haha...j/k Shery...(luv ya!!!!!!!!!) We're all worried about college....arg! I juss need an acceptance letter so i won't have to worry so much!

Welps~ i was watching some Yuh In Cchun Hwa today (Women's world) and i ended up finding the picture of the 6-year old SAEJA (he's actually a 5-year old in real life)...but anywayz...he's so cute and such a great actor for someone so young. Well this time...the supporters of the young Saeja (meaning the crowned prince to the throne), which are his uncles, Hee Rak Dahng and Pan Boo Sah have other members of the emperor's council to go against one member who is basically a good citizen and council member to the emperor. The others were caught basically "stealing" more money that they should from taxes from the citizens of Korea at the time and got in trouble with the Emperor..in order to keep a good image they end up trying make the good council member look bad. Yeah it's really sad, and i think my dad said that the good council member <<Ahn Dahng>> ends up getting executed. Yup yup. But anywayz....Saeja knoes that the bad council members are bad and does not become decieved by his relatives's opinions and doings. Meanwhile...the empress *Moon Jung Wang Hoo* a.k.a. Joong Juhn (meaning empress in Korean) is pregnant and made a decree to the lower ranking consorts (Kyung Bin Pak shi, Chang Bin, and Hee Bin Hong shi) to make a prayer that she have a princess. They are shocked and ask the Jah Suhn Dae Bi (the Dowager Queen, Emperor's mother) to tell Joong Juhn to undo her decree. Well the Dae Bi is shocked and asks why in the hell she wants to have a princess. Her excuse: to help the Saeja become Emperor and if she had a son, it would look like she wanted her son on the throne. She tries to act innocent and in this history drama, she seems like a good empress...sure she had her good intentions, but her and her brother Yu Won Young, and his second wife, Nanjung end up ruining Korea. *sigh*

I was juss thinking.....why in the world are all guys so horny? I mean sure....girls are horny too, but the majority is so open about it. Well i take back that ALL guys are horny but geez..once you give them a hint of......ooooooohhhhhhh i'm interested or ooooooooooooooohhhhhh i like you...they go farther and farther and once you knoe it...you've gotten the guy hooked on the convo and he will never talk about anything else again. Welps~i guess that's not totally true either, but still......wtf? Is this world only evolved around sex and intimacy? I knoe my world doesn't. Geez.....what would be my ideal guy? I was talking to Shery about this....but she's sick-n-tired of bad guys because you end up changing yourself and he tries to change for you, but it never works out. I mean...it's not the "bad guy" image i'm after, but hey if he's cute and has a "bad" side to him (maybe he doesn't, but that's not possible), but yet could be the sweetest person you've known......and loves you.....damn...sure that's a movie screen guy.....but hey...wouldn't you love to have a guy like that? I'd rather have a guy like that then...a a sweet guy, yet who seems reserved, and later see the bad side of him.......then you juss......blah~~ sick of him.......wouldn't you girls think that? I mean sure.....guys might want that shy image...but......eh....wouldn't you want to meet a wild girl of your dreams? I dunno..lemme shut up now~peace!