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I noticed that today was the last day of November~ It's finally going to be December...and only 2 months away from the decision of whether or not i get in :-( i can't wait that long...Shery called me about 5 minutes ago...she wanted me to listen to her essay for a scholarship at Carolina...i hope she gets it...Shery is such a unique person and one of the maturest person i knoe~i think she's more maturer than mah mom....but i won't elaborate any more on that...hehe^^...today i asked Carol about what time a group of ppL were going to the movies on Saturday...I got pissed off at some of the things she said..i mean...i'm not trying to be mean and offend anyone..esp. Carol, but ah~! Where do i start? Well first of all she was like keep it on the DL about Ve and Dan...and i'm like....TOO LATE FOR THAT~ I popped the bubble already...she got a lil mad...if not more...she said that it was no one's business...too bad i told ppL to not say anything about me and andrew...but i guess that was a lil too late for that b/c practically the next day the whole ASIAN (not juss CHINESE, but KOREAN) COMMUNITY knew about how Andrew and I like each other.....okie.....i guess you can't do much after everyone knoes...i mean i couldn't exactly deny anything...but it was true when ppL asked "so what's up with you and Andrew? Are you guys going out?" The answer was always "no...we juss like each other" and i was prettie much ticked off everytime i said this because if i'm going to have a relationship with someone...it would be nice if it was definite...i mean yeah...it's no one's business...and it's also very irritating when everyone asks the stupid question of "OOOOOOOOOOOOOOOHHHH what's going on btwn you two?" If you guys are human...you guys could tell that yeah we were both attracted to each other.
Okie back to the convo i had with Carol...she acted like she was my counselor and was like..you should sit down and talk with your parents about relationships...yeah...if i wanna go get killed...i might as well walk infront of a running car....seriously.....my parents aren't the type of ppL to understand dating during high school...and then what drove me nuts was that she was like "i should go talk with your parents..." sorrie...many ppL have tried...i would be willing to bet a million dollars (that i don't have) that neither of my parents would listen.....they would actually think that Carol was insane....ANYWAYZ...yeah i popped a major bubble...i'm actually very jealous of Ve (but hey, i'll get over it....:-D) Haha...i was trying to get Julie to hook up with Bobby...she was sorta interested...and i told Bobby and he wasn't......so i dunno~!
I got a letter from VA TECH saying that they got my application...i hope i get in there if not Carolina...i really wanna get into carolina now since everyone in IB has gotten in I will look like a total idiot if i don't get in...geez...the other day i was stressing out and then i complained to Liz and i ended up getting her stressing out about her college shua~ she apparantly had a fight with Neal....and then i asked Neal what was up and he was like it wasn't a fight...AH~! I have to take the SATs saturday..i'm not going to go to work cuz it's juss too much~i gotta do my guided course work shit~ i hate school...no wait a sec...if i'm more optimistic about things then i will get things accomplished more quickly...I LOVE SCHOOL~! so thereofre June will come soon! i wish...if not...then January will come soon.
I'm going to do 3 more applications over Christmas break~ I can't wait~!i should be studying for the SATs right now...or doing something more...i dunno productive? life is such a waste sometimes....sometimes i'm like.....God gave me life...but he should've juss saved breath and energy and gave it to someone else..but i must take Ms. Brynes's advice on being optimistic...LOVE YOURSELF...enjoy your bodyt he way it is...enjoy the way you look...it doesn't matter what's on the outside...(she didn't say that...i juss thought that that sentence would fit in)