In these coming up weeks I have a contention plan for stepping up. Money and school basicly. I have to know what school I will be attending in the fall. Basicly it hinges on the fact of if I can take Cal 1 and Physics over the summer. Thats the first thing. Then, how in the fuck am i going to pay for this schooling. Scholarships and grants and stuff. I must, I MUST find more money. I'll set a school deadline for JUNE first. By then I should know. More on the recent side I need to find a new job. For reasons already mentioned. 20-30 hrs a week at least $10 hr. thats the goal. Having to do with CAD. Well thats the plan.
ok, so $150 in dress clothes down the toilet. I need to look good to find a good job. Thats the truth. I see it as an investment. Virginia and konani went with me. I think she thought I was getting annoyed by konani but I wasn't. I'm more mellow. She's a cute kid and has a world of hurt ahead of her but all kids in this fuck up world do. It's nice to know that someone you care about really loves something else other than herself. It is very humbling and gives her a very real attitude. I wish she wouldn't make the cardinal sin of keeping up with a dip shit ex. This isn't jealousy folks this is 100% experience. I know all about hanging on for someone who is a fuck up. They will never change and it only make the enivitable harder. Sometimes i like the fact that she is kind of experienced and has a degree of life challenges that bring her wisdom and other times it annoys me that she has no idea what she is going to do with her life. I wish i could do more for her. I wish I could do more for everyone.