This isn't really for anyone else, just for me to look back on. I figure a while from now I'll be zipping through these pages and come across this and it will remind me of something. Who knows because things could be very different then, but one thing is for sure I have a good feeling in my heart and I'm doing what I can to keep it that way. Several months or years from now I might not have this feeling so maybe when I look back this will give me that satisfaction if for only a few fleeting seconds. I wrote this e-mail to Natty this morning. I figure it's good enough to share with others and maybe they to can be reminded of the special people in their lives.
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Yea, it's early and I have nothing to do this early except clean my room. Maybe you won't get this till later or when you get around to checking your e-mail, but when you do I hope it puts a smile on your face. I love you natty. I went to sleep and was thinking of you, and I woke up and was thinking of you. I'm just staring at the clock...5:30pm I see Natasha, my baby. And then I'll be so happy. I guess this is the feelings that people say they take for granted. You wake up everyday in your routine and see that person. You say your good mornings and have a nice day at work lines that you repeat day after day. You are always certain that that person will be there when you get home. But every now and then something will happen and what you took for granted won't be there. Maybe that tire you meant to get looked at comes off on the highway, or maybe that chest pain you kept putting off going to the doctor for finally takes over, or maybe a plane crashes into your building right as you are sitting down your desk drinking your star bucks caramel marcioto. We all do it, none of us do it intentionally, but we forget just how special the people around us are. I'm not going to promise I'll be any different because one day I probably will. And then I'll come across and e-mail that I wrote and remember how short life may be. But I love you baby, and if I ever start to wander and forget how special you are to me...just forward this back. I love you nattty. You don't have to reply to this novel. Obviously I have a lot less to do today than you. Have a great day at work.
Your Joe
Don't forget about my pants. ;)