I have got to stop watching the news. There are some really messed up things going on out there. All my media information will now come from the Daily show. The only real legitimate source of media. Between the lady who smashed her kids heads in with rocks and the guy who murdered his girlfriend and their kinds and then cut out there hearts....that right I said cut out there hearts......why even bother driving myself crazy with histeria. I recall what Michael Moore said in Bowling for Columbine, how the media is skewed to the negative and shapes our opinions. It really does when you think about it. That whole west nile mosquito thing for example. They had/ have people in paranoia. I remember when John Ashcroft said every American should have duct tape as a terroist readiness kit, excuse me while I laugh at this. Sure enough the sale of duct tape sky rocketed. Nice stock tip don't you think. And then sometimes it works in the opposite direction where the media ignores a story. How many people in ghetto schools all over the country died in gun fights in the. Then it was a problem. An urban gang problem, AKA a non-white problem. A couple of fuckers from suburbia come around and shot up the place it isn't a problem, it's a tragedy.
I think that is the essence of this country. We are critisized as a nation for not caring but isn't that what the intention is and should be. When you hear of a suicide bomber in Isreal killed 10 people do you really stop and think about it. You'll most likely hear the same ignorant grumblings of nuke the bastards. Imagine here, something like that happens the world stops. If you really listened to all the bad news, if one really cared and sincerely felt the pain of thier fellow man, you would go crazy. The depression would drive you mad at humanities in ability to refrain from harming its self. And you would most likely wake up and realize that you have to just work really hard and create your own world and own happiness. I guess you would be me....
AAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! less that 30 days till school is out. Will I make it? Running on fumes doesn't even begin to describe it. I'm running on jack daniels fumes. So many school decisions to make. Dorm life again? Will I regret it? Will it be the same? Can I pass at UTA? A student should not be afraid of classes. I need to get things rolling thats for sure And I need to get a digital camara too. Note to self. Once I get this degree a failure I will never be. Staying strong with school and having as much fun as possible. that the goal.