christmas come and gone.
strange.
it was just another day for me.
i woke up and wandered down to work and i pulled shift.
no tree. no lights. no special food. no family.
does this mean i've grown up.
when the holidays lose thier wonder.
when the season no longer inspires a sense of awe.
then i don't like being an adult.
maybe that's why i can not wait until i have my own children.
to live through them during all the times that are no longer special to me.
on the lighter side of things the only person who thought of me enough to get me a gift is a muslim and he doesn't even celebrate christmas. and because of his religion i didn't get him a gift. now i'm a dick. damn.
i sure am glad i've been buying myself lots of stuff. my birthday and christmas. i hate being depressed.
now i feel like a real sucka.
the one thing in this world that i always thought was so silly was the whole internet love affair thing.
but now i've met a girl on the other side of the earth and i check my email every 15 minutes to see if she's written. i barely know what's she looks like, but her mind is what has me.
the things she thinks and the way she views seem so similar to mine.
a wonderful escape and aconversation through cyberspace.
december 27, 1999