December 25, 1999
i've spent the better part of my christmas eve searching through online journals, and i have come to a conclusion.
the world is in to much pain.
so much hate. so much angst. so much sorrow. gimme a break. am i alone in this.
sure i feel pain.
you bet i've hated myself more then once. but come on. what is the sayin?
god helps those that help themselves.
you have to look at everyday as if it were your last because it very well might be. if you knew you were going to die tomarrow would you spend today bitchin and moanin about some boyfriend or how everyone hates you?
90% of how the world views you is directly related on how you view yourself. if you hate yourself can expect any less from the rest of us. everyday should be an adventure and if it isn't for you then your not looking hard enough.
interact with what is around you and don't seclude yourself from it. actions and reactions occur at every instant and you can either be part of the problem or part of the solution.
what do you wish to accomplish. what is your goal.
pain breeds pain. and happiness to happiness.
don't wallow. don't cower. don't give up on a gift that is 600 billion years in the making. every event. every sunrise. every bit of energy since the dawn of the universe has worked to bring you, yes you, to this point in time.
and who are you to waste that.