| March 6, 2002 12:00 AM (Abby's Thoughts) I'm not good at studying. I don't know if this is a reflection of my complacent attitude or what. And then I think about how I'm not a very good steward of my time sometimes. Because I think I have enough time to stay somewhat on top of my schoolwork but I always end up doing things really last minute. Like for Comp Lit. This past week was the first time I actually did the homework a day early. And even then, Hannah and Kevin had already beaten me. I think I just look at how other people seem to stay on top of things and I wish that I were more like them. Studying with Hannah is good. I'm going to miss our library dates. We had one on Saturday and it was good cuz she motivates me a lot. Not by anything she says, but just watching her study and try to stay on top of things really encourages me to try harder to stay on top of things. I think my life would have a lot less stress if I didn't procrastinate so much. So then I was thinking, is my procrastination a reflection of my character? And i don't think that's a good thing. =P Cuz I think that being disciplined in one area can help you be more disciplined in other areas. I remember my piano teacher in high school told me this. Actually, I only took 2 lessons with her. My other piano teacher that I had for 10 years retired so I started going to this other lady, but she lived too far so I quit after 2 lessons. Anyways, she told me that her discipline in practicing piano has really helped her to be disciplined in other areas, like in her quiet times and in getting errands done, etc. So now I'm thinking, do I just lack discipline in ALL areas of my life and not just in studying? Hmm, not a happy thought. I think discipline is something I REALLY need to work on. And not just in studying. In my prayer life, in my personal Bible study, in keeping up with people I don't see very much, in reading, in going to sleep early........basically, I think I need to be more disciplined in general. Maybe writing this update is not the best use of my time then. I think I shall go to sleep now so that I'll be well-rested for a long day tomorrow. I hope that I'm not just gonna write about discipline. I hope that posting this will spur me on to actually WORK on being more disciplined. Prayer....I think I need to pray about this more. Good night! |