| March 13, 2002 1:16 AM (Abby's Thoughts) Sooooo, I'm not sure how exactly to write this update but I'm just going to write what I've been thinking about lately. Hopefully it'll be okay. After reading Jessie's plop about guy stuff, I thought about how much time I spend thinking/stressing/dwelling on this topic. And not just in my own thoughts, but with other people too. I realize that I spend a lot of time talking with my girlfriends about this topic and I realized that that's probably not the best use of my time. I was journaling a couple days ago and I skimmed through some of my past journal entries and realized that I spend way too much time thinking about this. So I decided that I would commit this to the Lord. I think i do this a lot (like with my one year commitment thingy that I did last year), but I still try to plan things out on my own and work things to "my advantage" somehow. And I realized that stressing/worrying about this stuff is definitely not trusting God. Because if I really trusted Him with every aspect of my life, I wouldn't be worried at all! I'd be concentrating on other things, like the tasks He has set before me right now. And I want to do those tasks well. I don't want my attention to be so distracted. I think I just need to not think about guy stuff or talk about it so much with people. Because it IS distracting and God hasn't given me any green lights so I shouldn't be worrying about this anyway. So yeah, I'm not going to be making anymore one-year commitment deals. More like a commitment to do my best at the tasks at hand. And right now, those tasks don't include stressing about guys. =) God's got it under control. I will trust HIm. =) Random aside: I have the most stars at Hannah and Jessie's. My closest competition is 3 away. Even though that seems like kind of a big lead, I'm still nervous. I compare this to our basketball team. Like, even when Cal is up by like 10 points, I still feel kinda nervous cuz I feel like the other team can catch up at anytime. So yeah, that's how I feel about the star thingy. =) I'm done with midterms!!! At least until after spring break. I rewarded myself by watching my tape of last night's Fear Factor. Oh my goodness, it was really good but really gross! It was celebrity fear factor! Totally fun and they are soooo mean to the celebrities. They pull out all the stops for them. =) |