| *Chapter 4* When I arrived back home I just stood outside of the front door for at least 15 minutes. I couldn't get up the strength to go inside. Brian was my life but everything was about to change. Suddenly the door flew open. "Jessica!" It was Brian, and he looked quite shocked. "What are you doing out here!?" "Ummm... Hey Brian, I was just on my way in...." "God, I know you don't wanna do this, but do you think I do either!? Dammit Jessica!" he ran inside and slammed the door in my face. I fell to my knees and started crying. I knew at that moment that it was over for me and Brian. I gathered myself together, wiped the tears from my face, and walked inside. Brian was sitting at the table with his face buried in his hands. I walked up behind him and put my arms around him. "I'm sorry about that Jess, it's just I love you so damn much, and this just ruins everything!" "Brian, it doesn't have to be over. You'll be out of college in 2 years, and I might not even be on TV by then! I mean, can't we just see how we feel at that time!? I love you so much Brian!" "Babe..... I wanna go with you!" "NO Brian! You have to finish college! I can't let you come with me!" "But.... I don't know what I'll do without you..." he started crying again. It tore me apart to see him like this, and I don't think I've actually ever seen him cry before all of this happened! "Brian..." I started crying too and fell into his lap. We sat there for a few minutes with our arms around each other, until Brian spoke up. "So.... will we keep in touch at least?" "Yeah of course! I'll call you all the time and tell you how I'm doing! And you can tell me how schools goin and stuff. I mean... can't we be `just friends' for a while?" "Well it is better than nothing right? I don't want to lose you completely!" He kissed me passionately on the lips as a good bye kiss. Then we went upstairs to the bedroom and fell asleep in each others arms. |
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