february 18, 2004 ok peeps. dont know why im posting... im dead tired, my appt is a mess and my eyes are about to pop out of my head from looking at this screen for so long. but anyway, class was so pointless today. the teach is hella cool though. she is letting class out a week early and no final. just an oral presentation. i am doing gender roles in forrest gump, cuz i love love love that movie. the income tax refund is a wonderful thing. i didnt "celebrate" v-day, but went to dinner friday night instead. (funny how i picked this pink set over a month ago, when i was all alone and bitter.) the concept is so foreign to me, i dont know if i even know how to do the whole valentines thing. i told josh its just a hallmark holiday. i hope he didnt take that the wrong way. we had our first major discussion about our "status" (and all that other jazz) and it was crazy. so im back on my zoloft now. i was getting really irritable, and i guess i dont want to be a big meanie to him. i sold some jewelry. that is a good feeling. emily is commisioning me to make her two more bracelets and a few bookmarks. it is kinda stressful knowing that i am taking money for them from someone i know. i dont want to make something ugly or a piece of crap. oh well, i wont have time to focus on it until spring break anyway. february 6, 2004 ok, it's been awhile. i have been bogged with school and various other sorts of paper-work. love my classes. 2 a's are in the bag... but philosophy is going to be a tought one. the prof is pretty anal about how he wants us to do things. i have a six page paper due next thursday, which is only a summary on a book. blech. i hate regurgitation. the craziest thing happened. i met a boy at the Flex show and we hung out and made out and all that. it was fun, he was sweet. i said goodbye without even exchanging numbers. he called me anyway. i stayed at his place last night. met his mom. ok, now what? he's funny and cute and sweet. he really likes me. im not sure how long this can last, but it's cool. wow. january 5, 2004 started the day with a trip to cols, with mom, grandma and sis. we were off to the starving artists sale to buy thomas kinkaid rip offs to go over the sofa. it was at embassy suites on cleveland avenue. so afterwards we go across the street to good ole TGIF. i was served a raw MOS burger (minus the O, of course) twice, so i just settled for a smoke in the bar. saw an old face from the mill. ian, of dave and busters fame is now ian, of TGI Fridays fame. oh yeah, and did i tell you i got a card for a free dessert/smoothie/appitizer on my next visit? yeah, perhaps it will be a brownie obsession.... it's been too long...... so miss E and i spent the rest of the day shoppin. i was looking for a new book bag/ backpack/ messenger bag/ ANYTHING. ended up buying a new pair of jeans and 3 new shirts. felt nice to spend it. ahhh, that money is going to be spent wellllll before the end of the quarter. good thing tax season is here! when we got home i popped in lilo and stitch, which kept her attention for about half an hour. meantime, i busted ass to try and get a grip on the trainwreck i like to call my appartment. it wasn't terrible, but it was bad. just neglected from all the time i have been at moms over the holidays. and now that the holidaze are over, i have no excuse for gluttony. so, it's back to the diet. perhaps i will add in workouts. i need it so bad. my body has gone to hell, and it wasn't exactly divine to begin with. i know what i have to do, it's just talking myself into doing it. over and over and over again, until i see results. somehow it's easier to just drink diet pepsi and smoke until i'm not hungry any more. |
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