It's getting pretty boring now the school holidays have started. Didn't do much at all but watch Wimbledon on TV. I really hope everything works out so i can get out of here and go to London with Syeekin, Shiang and Jose.
I'm back to one of my low points this year because of the stupid wetsuit incident yesterday. I don't even want to remember it, but well, let me tell you about it. I went surfing down at Porthmeor beachwith Jane yesterday evening. Anyway, after i came back, i got told off by Carol again for not saying a bloody THANK YOU to her for lending me the wetsuit. It wasn't me who took it anyway, Jane did. What the hell? Shit. Such little thing also want to take it against me. I do quite a lot of things like housework also none of them thank me! Not that i want them to! I never take it against anyone. What's worse, they're gossiping behind my back for little mistakes that i don't realise i do. Bloody hell, why can't they just confront me instead?! Well, Joan told me about it. Stupid people. I'm not perfect, what do you expect. Duh! What a bunch of hypocrites! It's not that i want to be rude to anyone unlike some people. I don't PURPOSELY not say thank you for people who helped me. I don't mind if they take their stress out and have a go at me once in a while, but there's a limit to how much i can take. i just want and wish i was invisible right now. Somehow, i don't think i can take all this rubbish anymore. Urgh, especially Carol. When she gets angry with Hols and Jens, she'll have a go at me as well eventhough i don't do anything.
However, speaking to Syeekin and Jose today made me feel so, so much better. I miss the comfort of how i am so lucky to have a family like mine. By that, i mean my real family and NOT my host family.
Taking everyday one day at a time as God has given me. Jane went back to London yesterday. We went to Mousehole yesterday morning. Very pretty. What a cosy little town. Came back to St Ives in the afternoon. Took a walk with Dylan(yes, the dog!) to Carbis Bay, IN THE RAIN! Got lost for a while but eventually found our way there. That was good for it laster about 2 and a half hours. Anything to stay away from the house!!
Job today : hopefully can get a volunteer job at the local charity shop, Save The Children. Meet Ian and Alison for dinner.
Jose called and said his host family is coming to Penzance the weekend before we are to go to London! How cool is that?! But he'll have to stay with me. Quite unlikely if i'm still in the same host family situation as now. I hope he does though. At least my few days of holidays won't be wasted I dare not call home as i still don't know where i'll be after the 18th of July! How pathetic eh! Cos that is when we'll have to move out of the house in St Ives. I hope everything gets sorted out soon.
Praying for:
1. My family
2. Vanessa, Shin Yen, Ai Wei
3. Carol
4. Where i'm going next week
5. London and Cardiff trip and hope Jose's coming here(GET ME OUT OF THIS MESS!)
6. Syeekin, Shiang, Jose
7. Joan and Eileen
8. Safe trip home for the AFSers going home today
9. Extended family
10. CU in college
I miss:
1. My parents! - A lot
2. Home - The comfort of home
3. Sisters
4. Jay, Eddie and Mozart - My doggies and cat
5. Vanessa, Shin Yen and Ai Wei
6. Malaysian FOOD!!!!
7. Syeekin, Shiang and Jose
I got an email from my dad today. AFS year here = character and patience building. Full of unpredictable experiences! Also a bit tiresome. Can't wait for London trip. FUN! FUN! FUN!