"It's all in a name." That basically describes all I've done so far today... I got shaken awake by my cousin Megan, 13, at 8:17 or so this morning to eat breakfast which was buttered toast and egg nog, we had to get ready to go back home at 9 for our practically hours of driving inside a van with my grandparents and my brother. After the packing was finished, we were on our way for our trip back to good ol' Cape Island.

Ever since I left on Wednesday (Dec. 25), I haven't really stopped thinking about what my friend had told me before I left... I also feel kinda bad because I never did get to tell her bye after I talked to her last either, the trip was kinda sudden. As well, I told her I would talk to her the day after I talked to her last, but I never got to because I was busy with movies, packing, gifts, christmas dinner and such. Plus after x-mas dinner at my nan's, we got home around 3:30, packing up around 4:17... there goes my whole day...

So Boxing Day is over... "Here today... Gone tomorrow". Two days go by really fast! I just hope all my friends had a great Christmas and got what they wanted as far as materialistic things go.

The way life seems for me now is like I'm on some sort of quest or something... Listening to music that I seem to relate to like Linkin Park, TRUSTcompany and 12 Stones, I realize how much I've changed over the years. It's unbelieveable really... I also realize how much I don't care about things that I used to anymore... but then I wonder, is that such a bad thing? I think its mostly because of what I've gone through in the past 4 yeras of my life. I experienced my frist crush, love, girlfriend, break-up, family argument, divorce in my close family, several deaths at one time (related as well as non), as well as the break-downs caused by stress, heartbreak and the tears and fears shed by my friends... Till this day I never once thought how much I, as well as everyone else, has pushed through to make it this far. I'd love to think I was the only one. Like the 'only one' to think I was living on a television show, waiting for the audience to make the laughs when something funny was said, or applaud when someone made it to second base or something. But yet again, DENIED... I'm wrong. Just because of that fact, it makes it that much easier to make me get through it all.

While in New Brunswick, I thought a lot about my friendships, so when I was at my aunt and uncles house in Oromonto, my aunt showed me a book on friendships, just poems and little sayings about friendships, so I quickly wrote some of them down, quoted from some poets that I want to put up in the Stuff section of my website.