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_______[[Personal
Info]]_______ |
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 Name:
Kares Ker Yee
Wun
Age:
18+
Star
Sign: Virgo
Neopets:
hyde_haven
Location:
Ipoh, Malaysia
Birthday:
29 August 1985
Gender:
Female
E-Mail:
[email protected]
ICQ:
52808645
School:
St. Michael Institution
Occupation:
Student
Hobbies:
+Listening
to J-Rock Music
+Watching J-Rock PV
+Day
Dreaming
+Online, ICQ
+Surfing The Net
+Reading Magazines
Quote:
"My
life has no purpose, no direction, no aim, no meaning, and yet "I'm
Happy"."
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_______[[Others.....]]_______ |
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Club
& Group: J-Rock
Haven
J-Rocker
Love: Hyde & Sugizo
Streamload
List (MP3)
Message
Board
Sign
or View Guestbook
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_______[[Questionnaire.....]]_______ |
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+Dark
Side
+Another
Questionnaire
+Questionnaire
2
+Questionnaire
3
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_______[[Currently....]]_______ |
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Date:
29 March 2004
Time:
23:15:12
Desktop:
HYDE
Messenger Skin:
Sugizo
Chating To:
June
Watching: Along
Came Polly
Reading:
Chat History
Pets:
3 Korbats
Projects:
+Day
Dreaming
+Joining
Clique
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_______[[Link
Me]]_______ |
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P.S: Please Click On The Picture.
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_______[[Favourites....]]_______ |
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Animals:
Korbat, Fox, Panda
Brand:
Pierre Cardin, Fila, Nike
Manga:
+Dear Boys
+Gensomaden Saiyuki
+Ranma 1/2
+Yu Yu Hakusho
Colors: Blue
& Black &
White
Drinks:
+Ice Lemon Tea
+Coke
+Water Melon Juice
+Carrot
Juice
Foods:
 
   
Band:
Singer: Hyde & Sugizo
Magazine:
+Music Rocks
+Ciel
+J-Points
+Pati Pati
I Love:
hyde, sugizo, L'Arc-en-Ciel, CD, PV, MD, VCD, Kares, bracelet,
necklace, earring, myself, holidays, cold weather, loneliness,
hi-fi, air-cond, television, my room, my friends, replying emails,
surfing Internet, reading, green tea, chocolate ice cream, korbats,
fox, panda angels, "devils", haven, "hell",
black, blue.
I hate:
hot weather, crowd, school days, annoying
people, red color, my father, my father's relatives &.....
I'm:
you
better tell me \(^.^)/
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_______[[Kares's
Websites]]_______ |
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Hyde -
Angel's Tale -
J-Rock
Haven
Rest In Peace & Fly Away
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_______[[About
This Layout]]_______ |
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Title:
{[ ThE NoBoDiEs ]}
Bishounen:
Marilyn Manson
Background Music:
White Feathers
Born on:
12 July, 2003
Welcome to the version 5.0 of
Rest in Peace & Fly Away. The lyrics at the top of the site
are from "The Nobodies" performed by Marilyn Manson. Image taken from Deviant Art.
As usual, no interesting fonts, no interesting brushes. Really
nothing much to say here, though it's getting rather... short. If
you by accident happened to come across this site, Congratulation!
You win nothing. Instead, you get to read a crazed teenage girl's
events and pointless diary. Sounds bored, doesn't it?
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_______[[Past
Layouts]]_______ |
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Dear
Life
Reality
Unknown
Synchronicity
~ Shining
In
The Air
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_______[[Past
Entries]]_______ |
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13
August ~ 12 July
28
June ~ 6 May
4 May ~
1 April
29 March ~ 12 March
26
February ~ 24 January
13 February
~ 23
January
22
January ~ 15
January
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_______[[Messenger
Skins]]_______ |
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Hyde
Hyde
Gackt
Sugizo
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_______[[Random
MP3]]_______ |
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L'Arc-en-Ciel
+Blurry
Eyes
+Neo
Universe
Sugizo
+Rest
In Peace & Fly Away
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| May
7, 2004 |
Recently, my mom noticed what made my
life mizerable.. She's trying her very best to give me what I've
been missing in my life... I knew what is my
responsibility...
Guess what.. today, I just bought 3 MP3 .. I only noticed that I
bought the wrong MP3 when I put the CD on the rack... .. the
great thing is, I put those MP3 in the fridge...
Theory test... cannot concentrate at all... today I slept in
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| April
29, 2004 |
| I'm sill having fever. I got worse.
And the bad thing is I still have to go to school. I'm really
tired, my nose is stuffy and it hurts when I cough. Maybe I'm
just being too hard on myself... Besides blogging and chating, I
got totally nothing to do.. just sit here doing nothing.. as
usual.. leaving my ICQ status in online mode.. once a while,
stare at it... ....Later, will upload my past blogging entries
for March to April... ...Something started bordering me again... |
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| April
27, 2004 |
| I'm insane.. that's the only answer.
I must simply be going insane... I feel like everything I'm
doing is worthless... That my life is going by without anything
of any importance happening... It's like.. when you lie in bed
at night awake and go over the things you've done in the day...
only there's nothing that you've done that matters enough to
think about... I feel like I'm moving according to clockwork...
that if I suddenly disappear, readjusting would be simple and
easy enough... I want to sleep all day and sleep all night
because it doesn't matter if I'm sleeping or awake, nothing is
really going to change. My mind full with tons of unanswered
questions. To make matters worse, I just really don't feel like
talking to anyone anymore. Not I don't want to talk.. just.. I
still have the feeling being betrayed by my friend deep inside
me.. I find myself getting more and more irritated. I can't
stand being around the people he's mixing with for extended
periods of time. I feel the pain, the way he treated me.. the
way I being fooled by him... the way he telling lies.. I'm
sitting here, with my insanity at my fingertips and I can't help
but continue going insane... |
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| April
26, 2004 |
| During the Chemistry break, I get
away. I need some kind of escape where I won't feel like I'm
constantly being judged... walk around the area near the tuition
central... in the end, ended up skipping tuition class again
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| April
25, 2004 |
| Didn't went for movie.. just cancel
the whole thing in the last minute... I was really tired when I
came home after completed the 5km Star Walk... In the first
place, I don't know what make me participate in the event..
Later, I went to sleep.. I slept from 7pm till 10.45pm.. Woke up
at 10.45pm.. turn on the computer.. log on to internet... |
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| April
24, 2004 |
Had three tests today. I think I did
badly. Sick of exams. *Sorry* all I've been doing lately is
complain, complain, complain. No happy news. Right now, saving
some money to buy a gift for my friend.
"Being grown up isn't half as fun as growing up, these
are the best days of our lives. The only thing that matters is
just following your heart, and eventually you'll finally get it
right..."
A friend of mine from Penang, just told me this quote... I
blamed myself for not following my heart.
"If I done something really bad or wrong, I'll admit the
mistakes I've done... don't I?" I got frustrated when I get
an unfinished business in hand"
.....No you're not.. You just leave the problem hanging in the
air...
"Before u judge a man u should walk with him a
mile"
..Well.. I can start to write a story based on what I've gone
through... |
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| April
20, 2004 |
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For some reason, I haven't had much time to
sit back and relax, which is what I was counting on for this
coming short holiday break... My nerves are all strung like mad.
I really, really would do anything to sit down and be able to
breathe and not constantly have to think about my problems. I
know I'm being a little silly about all of this, considering,
well, this is how things will be like from now on -- always
worry after worry after worry. Man, life really sucks if this is
how growing up is going to be....
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April
17, 2004  MUSIC:
Spirit Dream Inside by L'Arc-en-Ciel |
| Come across a statement....
"it's hard for us to tell whether that person is THE ONE,
but if you really wanted that person to be THE ONE, you have to
believe them"... I do that.. Then, there are times when I believe in a
thing that call "RESPONSIBILITY" and
"TRUST"... There are moment when I really trusted
someone.. that made me believe when say it out.. will make me
feel better.. tough many times it made me cry. Now I can
see the consequence.. this sudden change hurt me too much..
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| APRIL
15, 2004 |
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This photo was taken during our school
celebrating this year's 77 Sport Day. Please click on the
picture to enlarge + better view.
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APRIL 6, 2004 |
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I don't know, I wonder sometimes if I depress myself as a sort
of pastime. There are too many reason to be upset. My mother has
found some reason to be pissed at my father and so I've been
somewhat released from her fury... I guess it's just that I feel
like I don't have any time or any way to breathe or rest... and
what I am doing, in the end, isn't really worthwhile. Today,
when I walk pass the road near the Taiko company.. I saw him...
and I was thinking about how it would be if in the beginning
we didn't start the relationship and maintain as friends.. it
would be fleeting happiness, but it wouldn't be something thrust
upon me to be happy about. Instead of being sent halfway around
the world to do something that is partly intimidating and partly
not my own work anymore.... I just feel like everything he done
to me, I have no say in the matter. |
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MARCH 25, 2004
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I know nearly all the consequences... and
what I'm guessing.. showing me that I'm right.. There are many
things & secrets I keep to myself. I don't know what to do. I
don't know whether is right or wrong to tell her. I thought a
lot of the possibilities. I'm afraid of many things that turn up
badly. It seems I just can't really trust anyone... even myself...
I don't know who to talk with anymore. I can't stand any much longer for unanswered questions.
There were just too many questions... can't ask and can't answered...
There are things I know, but the problem is I'm not allowed to say
it out because of the promised I've made... Furthermore, they will
not believe it.. she will not believe it as well... Times... hate about it but times really does the proving...
there are many time where I saw him ..... at her... I have the
feeling our relationship will not last long... sooner or later we
are not couple anymore.... he will confess his feeling to
her.
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FEBRUARY
21, 2004
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A friend of mine told me the reason why he asked that girl out, is
because to broaden her friendship and social skills..
unfortunately.. my friend don't seem to understand what in this
girl's mind... ya.. the answer he gave did made sense.. ..but do
you know.. what this girl feel when you asking her to come out
and meet your friends? ... she felt you're trying to
"show" her to your friends...
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