"Time for bed baby," Daddy told me while I was playing a board game with Jane. Although I wanted to finish the game I was a bit tired so I decided to get up and forfeit the game.
"Night daddy." I hugged and kissed him on the cheek.
"Sweet dreams."
I was just glad daddy wasn't coming with me normally I'd get a bedtime spanking well at least 4 or 5 times a week. Of course those are the unearned ones and there not that bad, the earned ones where the only ones I had to really fear.
I hadn't had an earned one for quite a while though. So I jumped into bed and fell right to sleep which even surprised me because I didn't think I was that tired. As a three year old I guess I got to get used to being tired easily.
While I was sleeping I was having nightmares that were really scary. It was scary because it's what happened what really happened. I felt so guilty about killing that man though I am still being punished I can't help but feel guilty.
I got up and grabbed my blanket and teddy bear and put on my glasses and went towards daddy.
"What's wrong baby?"
"I cannot leep. I had a nightmare."
"Want to talk about it?" I pointed my head towards Jane. "Want me to come to your room?"
"Yes daddy. Please."
We went to my room and he sat on my bed and cuddled me on his lap not over. Which is an unusual position for a penny. "Now what's wrong baby?"
"I feel guilty killing him."
"Oh sweetheart. I know it is hard. And I know it hurts. But When all of this is over you'll feel clean I promise."
"Daddy could you pleaze pank me now?"
"Are you sure?"
I nod. Daddy took me over his knee and only hand spanked my nightgown a few times. No bare no nothing. Then put me to bed on my tummy and tucked me in. Then kneeled next to me.
"By-low baby by-low baby by-low baby by-low baby by. Daddy still loves you daddy still loves you Daddy still loves you though his gone to war." Daddy sang. (Authors note: I know I should quit using mash. The song is Radar's Lullaby in the episode The Kids.)
I fell right to sleep and no nightmares anymore. And from then on whenever I didn't have an earned spanking or unearned spanking daddy would just sing me that song till I fell asleep.