Friday, aka Freeday, Yay, and not only that but today Star Wars
Episode 2 also came out. It was like the talk of the week, and I was
also a bit excited, but of course we all know my heart wasn't all that
looking foward to the movie. I felt like shit actually. In fact it was
today that I say I officially got sick again, I suppose I lost to the
germs again. I'll elaborte later. Today Yasu and the rest of the guys
said that they wanted to go see the movie and I agreed too. It was an
A day and of course Precalc was my first class. I have absolutly no
recollection of what happened in class. All I know is once at break
I went to the library and sat there thinking. On Wednesday I called
Cat so I could invite her to see a movie with me, also so I got to know
her, and since that failed I was hoping she come with us to see the
movie. NOW, as of now I think about it, I must be thinking outta my
ass. That is such a stupid idea. Well at break all my friends were
chatting and I decided I'd go to the cafeteria to find her, since I
bet that's where she hangs out at break anyways. So I walked there and
kept looking, and lord and behold I found her, no challenge, the real
challenge was for me to walk up and talk to her, again. Well once again
she was sitting with her friend that I saw on Monday. I have no idea
what I said word for word. I just remember the plot. I think I said
'hi' I guess. Well anyways I asked her that did she get my call that
I called to her on Wednesday. At first it was like a surprise to her,
and I was confused. I then told her that I talked to her mom and I
was wondering why she had no idea what I was talking about. She then
somehow looked as if she remembered. I then asked her did she like
know my name cause I knew hers, and since according to the last entry
I told her mom my name. Anyways I then continue and ask if she wanted
to go watch a movie with me. Well once again she was a bit hesistant,
just like on Monday, and once again her friend was like encouraging her
to go. I think she was like kicking her leg or something. Anyways once
again she didn't say too much.
HEY LUCKY ME, I GOT E-MAILS, CAUSE I FORGOT SO MUCH. SO LET'S TAKE
IT FROM AFTER WHEN I JUST TOLD HER I CALLED HER ON WED.
Well I talked to her telling her that I'm sorry for being such a
stalker and such. I told her it was really difficult for me to talk
to her since she's like always on the move. I said something like
you move liked the wind, because yesterday it was a b day and after
arch, I've always seen her thru the hallways. Anyways this time she
like ran into Sid and said sorry and was off. I should have said
something that time, but once again like Monday it all happened to
quickly. Anyways I think I asked her once again whether she wants
to go to he prom with me, and again she doesn't answer. She said
that her friends b-day was that day or something, but I'm not sure.
Still she didn't answer. Well I told her again that I really liked
her and it would me so much to me if she went to watch a movie with
me so I could get to know her and vice verse. She still didn't
answer, but once again her friend was telling her to go and kicking
her leg I think. Anyways I remember as I was talking to her, I heard
this abrupt cough, and I turn around and saw that Jack Hou was
buying a drink from the vending machine and seemed to be laughing.
The girls saw it, but I was like I don't know this guy. Anyways
her friend tells me that if I had a cell I could give her my number,
I did that and I left. Once again I felt happy, thinking I accomplished
something, and was hoping she'd go to the movies with me today since
Star Wars starts today.
THAT IS SO BULLSHIT, SINCE I KNOW WHAT HAPPENS. REAL SAD WRITING THIS ALL DOWN
As the day goes by, 2:45 comes and it's time for us to go. I turn on
my cell, hoping she'd call, but got my hopes up too high again. We
waited in the lobby for my other friends. I then see her and she walks
past me w/o saying anything. This bothered me, so I told my friends to
go out first cause I wanted to ask her again. Anyways I then told Ed
that I won't go if she doesn't and he got a bit pissed. He asked why
didn't I say that earlier. I then said that if she wanted to go to
the movies with me then I could take her and I didn't want to watch
Star Wars two times.
GAY!!! AS IF SHE'D WANT TO GO WITH ME, I DON'T BELIEVE HOW NAIVE I WAS.
As our conversation got going I said I was sorry, and he left. I then
walk to the caf�, and see her bag. I had an idea she must be buying
food in the snack bar. Well I saw her. Then I realized that the cell
number I gave was wrong, so I immediately took out a piece of paper,
wrote my cell and phone number. Once again I go up to her and apologize
for being such a stalker and told her that the number I gave earlier
was wrong. This time she was with another friend and this friend had a
bu-swang the face when she stared at me, kinda scared me, so I didn't
say too much. I then said that I guess she didn't want to go to the movies
with me. I'm not sure of her answer, cause I saw it in her face. I felt
disappointed and left once again. This is really sad for me. I'm going
head over heels for her and maybe she doesn't care at all. Anyways
as I meet up with my friends I said I might not want to watch the movie
with them, some got disappointed. As we walk out of school I look behind
me and see that she and her friend were also leaving school. Sometimes I
wonder if she pretends not to see me or whatever, but at the end they
went the other way. Finally I decided not to go due to my health and
my broken heart and I made up the reason since my mom came back today
from US, I wanted to see her. And I said bye to them. Actully I was
feeling more like shit cause my health was in bad shape. By that time
the sky was dark, like it was gonna rain. Yasu was also sick had like a
running nose so he didn't watch it either, so I decided maybe in the
future I'd watch it with him. That marked yet again, another failure.
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