June 16, 2004

I stay home today doing the layout since I havent do anything to it for a while. Friends asked me to go but I really don't feel like going anywhere. These days I try to stay home so then I can go to my friends party next thursday. Sigh, hopefully it's going to be fun.

October 25, 2004

As days go by, I feel more pressure in myself. I have no way of letting it out. I feel deeply heavy insides of me. I hate it so much. I hate being single but then again I hate and scare to be in another relationship again. I try my best already. But I do not promise anything about it.

May 15, 2005

Its been forever since I wrote here, many things change and I start to feel different from people. I put my position from an outsider and look at what Im in before. I start to stay home and avoid all those drama I used to have. I want my life to be normal. Is that really hard to be?

May 28, 2006

I had fun last night chilling over Thuong house with everyone. I haven't have that much fun in a while now. Even though its only a day but at least the moment I feel happy  not short. Everyone there whole day and left during night time. I went home by myself with no one next to me. I want someone to walk with me but how can I ask the person to? I don't know what got into me. My tears started to tear up as the music replay and replay. The light was off, everything was off, I sat here in my chair tearing myself up. suddenly my phone vibrate and I receive a message. I started to feel a bit better after talking to Ernest. Hope I get to talk to him again. So many things in heart I can not say.. or maybe I don't know where to start.