Wednesday July 7th, 1999

1202

On the radio this morning the dj said, "this wednesday that feels like tuesday..."  but my thoughts translate == "this wednesday that feels like tuesday..."  there is a slight difference there, believe me.

Since getting back from NY, I've been tired...wanting to sleep much more...Went to sleep b4 midnight last night, debated taking a nap right now...Maybe it's the heat, or maybe my body just hasn't fully recovered from the weekend--thats very likely.  Now, back home, it seems a surrealistic dream.  Hard to imagine a dream of mine since I was a wee little one is now realized, something I always wanted to -- difficult to put into proper perspective just what sort of meaning the experience became...NY was really the last place in America I really felt drawn to, the last option in my residence list.  I suppose there is Chicago...I would like to see that city to, but it doesn't hold nearly the same marvel SF or seattle or NY had for me.  But to think that I actually saw new york b4 i turned 24.  I never thought i'd get there that soon, it just never occured to me.

Coming back, i waved goodbye.  New York is just a city, true, but for me, it was a symbol, a dream...To have walked Broadway, 5th Avenue, Central Park, to have examined the Met, the Empire State Building, East Village, the Statue...it's all a privelage for me.  I don't know when I'll go back to NY, but i don't think it will be anytime soon.  I don't think I try to live there for any substantial amount of time.  It's an awesome city with so much to do and see, but it gets old and stagnant just like everywhere else.  I think I placed too much magic in it when I dreamed.  It seems I have oft done that in my life and in my dreams...wanting something to be more than it really is.  It's a human thing I suppose--most if not all of us do it at least occasionally.

So I dropped off the pictures for developing yesterday.  They should be ready for pickup thursday. What I ought to do is create an online photo gallery.  I mean, might as well seeing as how most of the images are online already for the pages...