I feel.
It's what I am
And what I do.
When I shut off my feelings
A part of me dies.
When I feel,
I live.

Surrender

I wanted to be one with you,
But I couldn't.

I didn't know what to do,
And so I ran.
And I tried to forget.

But then one day, I forgot to forget.

This time I didn't want to forget.
I couldn't forget.
I realized I had to love you.
So I surrendered.
I surrendered to everything I was feeling.

I struggled,
Learning to cope with these feelings,
But the outcome was something incredible.

I can't have you.
But I can have your music.

I lie down and listen to your music.
Everything else disappears.
I surrender to the music.
I become one with the music.

As I do
I connect with something more.
Your music becomes a pathway.

As I experience the music,
I experience our Lord.
As I become one with the music,
I become one with God.

And so I find
That though I don't have what I wanted
What I do have
Is worth even more.