i can't stand it. like a said, i'm having problems with my parents; particularly with my mother. yes, i do have good times with her, but there are times when we just don't mix. you see, i'm a lazy person. when my mother comes home from a stressful day at work, to this MESS of mine, she gets cranky. she'll start bitching at me about ALL SORTS of things. but then ME, being the PERSON that i am, will yell at her and everything. the fighting begins. ARGUEMENTS, YELLING, SCREAMING, OBJECTS THROWN AROUND.

like i've said many times, i messed up last year, and i'm trying to do better in school. my mother wants me to focus on school. so when i'm doing my homework, and they ask me to do something like, was the dishes, i GET MAD and irritated. it's the person that i am. i don't like being interupted when i'm trying to concentrate on something. right now, i'm going through so much. SO many emotions are going through me right now, so many that i've kept inside for so long, and some i will continue to keep inside.

to get to the point, i will take a break from blogging. I've been in too many arguements, and i've handled them. but this time it's different. i just need time to think about all these things. i don't know how long this break will be...maybe a few days..maybe a few weeks...i don't know..

do you ever think about ending it all?

posted by KaKa on 12:49 AM

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arghhh...i got some more drama with my mamma...looks like no CAR for me.. *sigh* i'm so selfish..

school...argh...i dunno no more...

posted by KaKa on 9:54 PM

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wee..justine's party was a blast..i had some fun...i got to seee: mISS jennelle, ann, jan, JEFF (heh..imma dork), dre, more people. i saw ANGIEE...i haven't talked to that girl in like 3 years, nd she still remembers me..awww, that made me feel special. i like feeeling special...too badi can't feel like that 24-7.

JEFF was wearing a LINKIN PARK shirt...and that one time he picked me up, guess what was playing? LINKIN PARK!! haha...how KOOL. i LOVE linkin park..HE likes linkin park....PERFECT MATCH!!! haha..just kidding...hah. i dunno, if you somehow read this JEFFF, umm...HIYEE!! haha!!!

posted by KaKa on 2:16 AM

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to sum up the last few days in a short entry:
i went to my aunt's house in hayward to spend thanksgiving...i had a BLASSSTT!!!!! haha...me and cousins just chilled at stuff. then the next morning, me and my parents came back home, and me and mommie went shopping...went to 2 malls, and yeah, go a few stuff...then later today i went back to one of the malls with my friend...but yeah...SHOPPINGGGGGGGG SUCKKKKKKKSSS!!!!!!! i HATE the feeling of spending moneyyyyyy, cause yeah..i just feel badd..and then, its SOOOO hard to find the right thing...and ahhhh..all these annoying people...GRR!!!! errrr...i misssed FRIENDS...

posted by KaKa on 9:59 PM

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happpppppppppyyyyyy thankssssssgivingg all!!!!!

im thankful for my lifeeeeeee, my family, the internetttttttt...and especially for YOU!!!!!! ;) ha!!!!

posted by KaKa on 3:33 PM

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interesting...it feels like fridayyyyyy...

okay..this is the start of thanksgiving vacation. since i was home with nothing to do, i decided to do some homework...i started at 5:30 and ended 7:30....wanna know what i did? well, i rewrote like 7 full pages of notes...straight!!!! no stopping...and ohhhh man, was that a mistakeeeee! ouchie, my fingers hurt so muchhh....man, although i want to do homework, i'm done for today..need to give my little fingers a break...ouchiee

weeeee...can't wait till fridayy!!!!!!

posted by KaKa on 8:58 PM

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blaH!!!!!!!! last night i downloaded the song from creed, my sacrifice...WELLL, yeah, after i downloaded it i turned off computer and wet to sleeep...i just played it...ad its the FREAKEN WRONG sonG!!!!!!!! argHH!!!! blah..time to get ready for school...byee!

posted by KaKa on 6:22 AM

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wee...right now i came from justine's house. i went there to Do homework, and i diD!! heh..we watched SHREK..haven't watched it since it was out in the movies, so yeah...I HAD TO WATCH IT!! man..i gotta say that movie is like..RATED PG13..shesh...all those "jokes"....man...see what movie makers are doing to our kIDS!!! but yeah..the kareoke sectionN!!! heheh..a bunch of LAUGHS!! haha..if you have the DVD, put SPANISH SUBTITLES and play the kareoke thingie and try to sing along...its so fun..well...I had fun..LOL

i spend my time in the library now, duing break time or lunch. it's a really good time to do homework so ya don't have to do it later on in the day...i recommend it...and HEY!!! i'm not a loserrrrrrr if i stay in the libraryyyyyyy!!

posted by KaKa on 9:11 PM

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blah..i deno..

posted by KaKa on 10:28 PM

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posted by KaKa on 9:14 PM

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weee...today was our retake test for spanish2. i walked into the classroom and everyone was studyin their old tests...i asked why and they said that mot likely it's going to be the same test because our teacher is lazy...weeee!! so yeah, i memorized the answers and looked up the answers for the ones i got wrong..so yeha...when we got the test.it was the same!!!! weeee...so yeha..i think i got all of it right..HOPEFULLY!!! heheh..muhahahhah!!!!!!!!!!! stupid teachers rOCK!!!!

my hommie john is selling me a movie for $5. FAST AND THE FURIOUS! he said i can only play it in my computer...but hey!! it's kew...i never watched the movie..even though i wanted TO SOOOOO BADLY!! CARS!!! PAUL WALKER!!!! WEEEEEE!!! errr..it better work...

posted by KaKa on 3:24 PM

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after reading the explanations of these disorders, i finally realized how "MESSED-UP" i am..

posted by KaKa on 7:13 PM

Disorder	Rating
Paranoid:	High
Schizoid:	Moderate
Schizotypal:	High
Antisocial:	Moderate
Borderline:	Very High
Histrionic:	Moderate
Narcissistic:	High
Avoidant:	High
Dependent:	Very High
Obsessive-Compulsive:	High
Click Here To Take The Test

*got this test from angela's site

posted by KaKa on 7:05 PM

yO...got my chem test back....i got a 82...ehhh....it's pretty good considering the fact that i learned everything like 6 hours before the test...at least it's a B...wee...errr..those people who cheated...they got scores like 104, 102, 101...BLAHHH!! but hey...i cheated a bit too..

posted by KaKa on 2:57 PM

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weeee..i did it!! i stayed up and read the material and studied...when i got to school, i noticed one thing..a few people had copies of the test..errrr...i gave into temptationnn , i'll admit it...hehe...i only looked at the front page..i still remember the first answers: "a, b, c, d, e, b, a, a, d, d"..hehehe..overall..i think i did average..about a c..waaa!! err...this'll teach me a lesson- to pay aTTENTION IN CLASSS!!!!

weee..mommie made an appointment with the DMV for my drivers liscense test...DECEMBER 11...WATCH OUT NOW!

errrr..linkin park was here yesterday..blahhh..

posted by KaKa on 7:13 PM

poopsie..i fell asleep...darnit..missed the michael jackson thingie..oh well..so yeah...it's 2 in the morning right now...i fell asleep at like 7, after eating 20 PIECE CHICKEN NUGGETS!!!! (with my sweet n sour sauce)haha!! woohoO!!! soo yummy...m mom sorta woke me up cause she was cleaning my room...ha!!! i guess she got so fed up with the mess that she just had to clean it..hehehe =D

so yeah..my plan is to STUDY till like 5:30 for my chem test tomorrow(poop..we have a sub in that class cause our teacher is on maternity leave..and i SOO don't understand stuff in the class...i don't even bother to pay attention =[ so yeah..i dunt know NADA =\ ) , then get ready for school...BLAHHHHHHH!!!!!!!

posted by KaKa on 2:19 AM

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weeee..yo..today is monday...

today was abegail's bday party..

HAPPY BDAY ABBY!!!!

i wanna change my webpage..it's too ugly, plain, and blah..but i dont got photoshop..and i don't think i have much space to download it =X blahHHHH!!!!!

posted by KaKa on 10:01 PM

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must...
do..
HOMEWORK!!!!

must...
get...
goood...
GRADES!!!

must...
stay...
OFFLINE!!!!!!

if you have MISS PAPPADAKIS FOR CHEM OR MR G. FOR AP HISTORY..please EMAIL ME!!!

posted by KaKa on 4:01 PM

WEEEEEEE!!! yeah..just got home from BATTLEFEST...it was kooll..i got a ride from JENNELLE'S hOT bOi BROTHER jeffery...and jennelle...man..jeff is a cuTeEe..hahh...but yeah..i got to mark people's hands with X's as the entered...weeee!! haha..but yeah...

OMG!! i saw this one guy that i danced with at a club!! ahhHh..didn't say anything to him cause i didn't think he would recognize me. but throughout the night, he was looking at me..AHHH!!!! what did i end up doing!?! i didn't say a word to him..as he was walking away, we were both looking at each other from afar. and then he left...MAN!!!!!!! i should have said like "HI, DO YOU REMEMBER ME?!" aHH!!! i was like, "yeah karenn!! you are gonna say something to him!!! yo have to!!" but noooo..i didn't have the balls to do it.. i wish i could go back in time..cause i really DO REGRET this..cause when we were at the club, i never got to say goodbye to him..and i felt bad...MAN!!!! i seriously feel so bad...
*go to OCTOBERRRR 9 BLOG to see more about the guy*

posted by KaKa on 1:45 AM

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sorry i haven't been blogging like i use to...i'm just so tired when i come home. but yeah..yesterday after school, me, justine, and christie went to watch a movie...we went to the theater and it turns out the next show is like in...ehhh..2 hourssssss..POOP..so we got our tickets and went to the mall nearby..GREAT MALL...yeah..sowe like, walked and walkedddd...then i saw ABEGAIL!!!!!!!!! haven't seen her in like..MONTHS...hehe..but yeah..we watched 13 GHOSTS..weeee!!! i liked the movie...pretty good and scaryyy..

then i got home..and was all pooped out and feel asleeepppp...

OH YEAHHHHHH...our club performed todayyy..weeeee!!! it was good..even though the sun was BLAZiN hoTtt...but yeah...i wanted to take pics..but i FORGOT my cameraaaa....i'll get a pic so i can show you guys..haah..not like you wannna see...=\

AHHHH!!!! my mom is turning psycho!!! she said she was gonna get me a car.....well..turns out that SHE wants to GET the car and i can drive that ol' little car of herssss!!!!! AHHH!!!!! nOooo!!!!! hmmm...i HAVE TO CHANGE HER MINDDDDDD!!!!!!!!

posted by KaKa on 10:33 AM

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AHH!!

posted by KaKa on 9:30 PM

weee!!! i WATCHED mONstEr'S iNC today with my mommie...the move was KOOOOOOL!! so cuteee...hehe..but yeah...i cried in the movie..AHHH!!! i'm such a limp..i don't mean those beginner's "teary eyes"...but FULL ON FAUCETS!!! hhah..good movie..i recommened..if you don't like it..well..don't do what i say then..heh....

weeee...our performance (FILPINO CLUB) is tomorrrow at lunchhhh..weeee!! all these practices and staying after school and tiredness will be over tomorrrrrow..weee

i got new PJ pants.they are soooo cuteeee!!!

posted by KaKa on 9:29 PM

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i carry a smile when i'm broken in two...
and i'm nobody without someone like you...
i'm trembling inside...
and nobody knows it but me...

"tony rich project - nobody knows it but me"

posted by KaKa on 9:49 PM

heyyyy..if any of you are from SAN JOSE, check out this event out. it's a dance competition at SAN JOSE STATE THIS SATURDAY. CLICK ON IMAGE FOR MORE INFO. it's gonna be KOOL yo...i'm gonna go..i think..

posted by KaKa on 9:38 PM

mannnn..tiring weeek i tell ya!! okay...so i got my practices for our performance at lunch on friday...mandatory after school....2-5...doesn't seem like a lot..but it isss...cause basically we know the whole dance..and we are just practicing overrrrr and overrrr...and the dance is really tiringggg cause we have to use sticks..oh WELL..this is a good way to lose weight...haha..TIREDNESSSS..AHH!!!!

so today is the date when britney's album is releaseddddd..weeeeee!!! haa..i don't think imma end up buying it though..haha..maybe just download the songs..heheh

poOpersS..

posted by KaKa on 6:27 PM

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weee..on the left, are pics of me and my BESTEST FRIEND JUSTINEEEEEEEEEEE...yeah..i've known her like..for like...11 yearssss...wowieeee..and she lives RIGHT ACROSS THE STREET FROM ME..heheh...

i got my ear pierced...my cartilage...my right ear...i have 2 other piercings on each ear..but i don't wear earrings..kinda wasteful eh?

weeee..i found 2 shirts at old navy that were only like..3.49...weeeeeeee!!!

i'm bored...

posted by KaKa on 6:20 PM

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AHH!!! how embarrasinggggggg!!!!!!! i was with jason at lunch today. then his friend JOEL told me that he came to my website cause it was in BOB'S links...HOW EMBARRASINGGG!!! i don't know...i feel perfectly fine if strangers read this, but people from schoool..ahhHH!!! it's just so akwarddddd!!!! people probably read all the DORKY things i write about...ewwww!!!! so if you are reading this JOEL....HI!!!!!!! heheheh

=P bob just informed me at lunch that he shut down his websiteeee...awwww pooopoo!!! i will be taking him off my links now... *sigh*

weee...at school, the FSU CLUB(FILIPINO STUDENT UNION) will do a performance at lunch..we are all partnered up...boy and girl..WELLL..i guess there wasn't enough GUYS..so i'm partnered with my friend..and i have the guy part!!!! she didn't want the guy part, so i have to be it. so when all the guys do a certain move..yep..i'm gonna be the girl that doing the same thing.... booooohoo!!!!! immma GIRL i telll you!!!!

posted by KaKa on 6:45 PM

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posted by KaKa on 8:07 PM

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