9/5/02 Lately I've been lonesome And crying all alone Lately I�ve been angry And wishing I was home. Lately I�ve been so empty And helpless over here. Cause I�ve been waiting for you To save me from my fears. I truly thought you loved me. I thought you were sincere. I thought that I was faking And that you were really here. But now I know I�ve been lying To me myself and I Because you�re not out there But I�m not quite sure why. Cause you swore you would protect me You swore you'd watch my back But I�ve been stealing glances And you�re not keeping track. I tell myself to slow down Or wait a little while. But deep inside I knew That ill that I'd have to wait for a long while. I never would believe it But now I'm aging fast And I know that your love Is something in the past. 9/22/02 i'm tired of pretending that everythings ok i'm tired of pretending that i have nothing to say i'm sick of all your bullshit i'm sick of smiling back i wish i was a bitch so i could hurt you back i wish that i was angry instead of so damn scared a penny for your thoughts if you even care. 7/16/01 words of hope come to me. i tell myself fairytales come true but then i look at you your eyes scatter to and fro is he looking at me? no, no he's looking at the dirt smeared across my face. he's looking at my hair tangly and out of place. he's looking at my jeans covered with mud and dust he's staring at my bracelet covered in rust hes glancing at my chest covered in hay. hes looking at my brastrap dirty from the day. does he think i'm cute? does he think i'm sweet or does he picture me as the girl from down the street? i guess i'll never know and i guess he'll never know who i really am or maybe he doesn't give a damn. |