9/22/02 i'm tired of pretending that everythings ok i'm tired of pretending that i have nothing to say i'm sick of all your bullshit i'm sick of smiling back i wish i was a bitch so i could hurt you back i wish that i was angry instead of so damn scared a penny for your thoughts if you even care. 7/16/01 words of hope come to me. i tell myself fairytales come true but then i look at you your eyes scatter to and fro is he looking at me? no, no he's looking at the dirt smeared across my face. he's looking at my hair tangly and out of place. he's looking at my jeans covered with mud and dust he's staring at my bracelet covered in rust hes glancing at my chest covered in hay. hes looking at my brastrap dirty from the day. does he think i'm cute? does he think i'm sweet or does he picture me as the girl from down the street? i guess i'll never know and i guess he'll never know who i really am or maybe he doesn't give a damn 5/1/02 what seemed to be a long long time ago was realy only yesterday. when you smiled you opened your heart i didn't know what to say so you left me alone walked away and left me crying hoping i was dying but i am dying i'm dying inside every breath i take hurts without you i'm nothing but a little girl with short hair and watering blue eyes. 5/1/02 why do you get it all? you get the boys you get the toys you get the body they say you're a hottie you get the looks but i'm here all alone with noone to to love or call my own so just answer me this why do you get it all? 5/14/02 when some one speaks your name i shudder deep inside when some one looks at you i simply wanna cry when some one holds your hand i walk away in pain but now she holds your heart and i don't wanna see you again. |