| 9/11/99 I was killed, By a falling star. It landed on my face, It spiraled on a moonbeam, Until it found it�s place. It rested in-between my eyes, Then exploded when I blinked. My body rose into the sky, My mind began to sink. I floated up into the sun, And spoke to bumblebees, I held vigil with a spider, Who lived beneath the sea. I listened to a clover, As it spoke to me with joy. I slept inside an acorn, And awoke to a deafening noise. A bullet in my brain, Like a memory in my mind. I became friends with the rain, I couldn�t make it in time. I died on the ground Conversing with the birds. I frowned into your camera, When you changed around my words. I smelled sulfur in my dreamland, And you rose to watch me fall. You took my little hands, And tried to make me tall. I traveled to a dust field, And followed you to bed, I knelt before an alter, I knew that I was dead. A bluebird told me why, You question what I do, An owl asked me how, I had ever thought I loved you. I reasoned with a lobster, That you�d been good to me. I tried to ask a violet, But she simply couldn�t see. I was killed by a falling star, It landed on my face. You�ll never understand me, And I�ll never find my place. |
| 8/9/00 Valley Falls Brings me down. A waste of time A pretty town. |
| 7/27/98 When you smile at me, I struggle to remember� And it hurts me When you dismember My ideas. I notice the way it has soured, The once fragrant, now brown and withered flowers, How the wine has turned to vinegar, And the cigarettes are stale, How we cut down a tree, And tried to stuff it in a pail. We used to have such real conversations, Now we talk about our weekends, And laugh about things that we pretend, Matter. 1/18/99 I�m not afraid of what I am, Or of what I might become. I�m not the American dream, But you�ll see, I�m someone. You think, that you�re so righteous. I think, you try to hard. You try to win me over, I guess, you�re in the dark. When�s it gonna end? I think that you�d agree: I cannot defend, The way I treat me. But I�m not afraid of what I was. I�m not ashamed of who I am today. Stop trying to be so accepting, You�ll accept the world in a realer way. Wake up! Nobody believes you. Shut up! I hate it when you cry. Sit down, try to save your face. Lie down, get in your grave and die. You think that I should be afraid, I�d say, you�re the one who�s scared. �Don�t leave me,� that�s what you always say. I guess that sometimes life�s not fair. Just back off, let me live my life. Or go home, you say they need you there. You think I care about what�s right. I wish that I could have some cares. Do you fear the things that I might do? Do you resent the stuff I�ve already done? You really have a lot to gain, By allowing me, to try to be someone. You�ll see, I�ll make it through this country, And you�ll see, I�m gonna make it big. A revolution, that�s what I hope to be, Remembered for, renowned for what I did. |