| 10/18/99 My taste is mine alone, My face is just for me. My smile�s not for them, I only smile for me. I don�t want to be polluted. I don�t feel like learning why, My values get uprooted, Every time I cry. I try to keep my distance, I try to be mature. But every time I see you, My actions seem unpure. There�s flames on the horizon. What away to be. Not caring about love, Or life, or destiny. 11/17/99 I think its� time, To draw the line. To decide what is, And isn�t mine. Don�t get mad, And don�t feel bad. It�s not your fault, That I am sad. This is the end, I can�t deny. That I believe you, Though you lie. Look at me, And try to say. You really want To make me stay. You should be happy For me, but you�re not. You should put some water, Into that flowerpot. Anybody else, Would smile at the news, You won�t smile because, It�s not about you� WELL GROW UP! 12/7/00 Nursery Rhyme I�m all used up. I have nothing left to give. I�m so empty now. Somehow I still live. I�m so empty now� Empty now, not really me. Used up, wasted, Can�t you see? There once was a girl, Who lived in this skin, She was driven away, By all the king�s men. All the king�s horses� And all the king�s men. She left this space vacant Won�t come here again. I�m all used up. Pieces of a stranger, Scattered on the floor Of a crumbling structure, A chain holds closed the door. Rattle�rattle� I want her back, She�s the sanity I once had. Can�t catch her, She�s with the gingerbread man. Man�oh�man� She�s high in the sky, She didn�t even pause to wave, Or turn to say goodbye. Star light, star bright, What happened to her grand foresight? Could once predict those stories Yet untold. Letting each mystery sparkle Like gold. I�m all used up. So empty now� She left my body, I know not how. |
| 11/29/99 I want to say �FUCK IT.� But I thought you loved me. I want to forget it, But I remember unconsciously. I really believed, That we were gonna make it. I just silently, Sit here and take it. And you�ll never know how it feels to be me. And you�ll never stand here, suddenly free. You�ll never be a place where I hide, Though you�ll always wipe the tears from my eyes. I really want to say �FUCK YOU.� I really want to say �I DON�T CARE.� I really want to say �Hey, FUCK YOU.� But I can�t, cause you�re not here. Stop lying, and I�ll stop crying, oh� 12/20/99 To Whom It May Concern: I don�t care what you think of me. I really don�t care. I don�t want to know, Why you just sit and stare. I do what I want to do. And I don�t want to know, What you think of my actions, So just shut up and go. You ask me so many questions. You never tell me about you. You give a false impression, Though all you say is true. 2/19/00 Drive all the time. Forget myself, In the lane changes, And yellow lines. Lose my way, Pull over, here. It�s okay, I don�t really care. Park the car, On the side of the highway. Bound in front of traffic, It�s still okay. Back behind the wheel, I�m okay, it�s been real. Stuck inside the glass box, Trying to set my watch. Hours to minutes to seconds� Time runs with me. I run away�er�drive away. Feeling tired, wait, I�m real wired. Forget my keys. Hot-wire My own truck� SO WHAT? |