Learn to read between the lines.
"hate eats me until I scream
nothing's real; it's all a sad broken dream
when you wake . . . you die."
U.S.A
We are oppressed You may ask of me I want you to
I lick my wounds
I wish away all my happiness
In this world of Lollipops and cotton candy
A glimpse of hope glitters in my soul of black
Once again I lay mangled and bloody
Flashing before your very own eyes
open arms
I am yes
I see all the ears bleeding from lack of kind words
I see the birth of stupidity as all intelligence dies
YOU TRY TO RUN YOU TRY TO HIDE
The Living World
the ambient strobe visual reality of life
technology replaces our gods
evil evolved into money and greed
in death the deeds and misfortunes of life
Hate if you will and worship your man-made
laying in the midst of peace and tranquillity
once was the pillow of two love-struck teens
gray is the color, and gray unites us all
I am a fake,
my words mean nothing
no one likes ME because no one knows me
lost in a world were I don't belong
Don't trust me!
I shall live forever
feeding off the pain of others
use your sharpest sword
my life will not expire
Drug induced dreams of democracy
God Bless america and the well to do
afraid of what they don't know
Brand me for life
twenty-five years to life
kill a man
What have we come to
Guess what?
I don't hate blacks, jews, gays, catholics
What have we come to when
Eyes of sorrow in broken dreams
disposable lives, expendable feelings
walking corpses don't know that they're dead
I watch the words flowing from your faucet's mouth,
War of the world; war of faith
soar through the air
luminescent sorrow
angels sit on pedestals on this my world of shit
Iron clad footsteps on tissue paper floors
hurt beats me down
I wish the world were better
can you even see
I want your hypocrisy
black and red banners wave
pass through myself in my mind
the cerebral walls were made real thick
osteoporosis, anemia, neither could stop me
the spiders attack, the snakes do too
My underwear and pantyhose, tried to kill
I woke up in sweat pools of blood
the shot clock be ticking, tick-BOOM!
"Ignorance is Strength? Strength is Weakness?"
what you don't know won't hurt you
I hate without discretion
your ignorance is strength
cause in this system all will fall
wish away worry
what was it? when?
I know it happened
what did you smell like?
I wish away worry
what needs to be seen
How did I do it?
In my dreams I remember
it's not you I miss
wish away worry
love is a word lost in its meaning
but what is love without hate?
I walk away in a cool torn breeze,
walk away slowly,
Love, me
Bring the pain baby
poisoned minds sing insane
demon of my person
angel, angel it's in your hair
We are controlled
Freedom once had
Now you
stole
Big Brother watching me
Everything I do
Everything I
see
Eighteen I die a man
For the country in which I stand
And all I know
is I don't wanna be
No politician
The vision that I
see
I see pain and suffering
Until the end of time
Look at the loss you
stand
Broken dreams they can't mend
All they understand is
Money,
greed, and crime
Pledge allegiance
To the flag, for
Uncle Sam
What it gives you
Is all the bullshit
For the republic in which
we stand
but my Life is a sad and lame metaphor
contrasting between Love and Hate
for just an ounce of pain
I'm an anger junkie
with no reason to belong
I'm the cavity waiting to form
always feared but never revered
I'm the buzzard feeding off of your life
but you're still warm
standing out like the lone diamond in a heap of coal
quickly taken by those who wish to exploit my feelings
for a quick cash refund
and like some poor dying dog I lick my wounds
However my saliva is tainted with salt
and with every lick I cry out in pain
All the while I'm smiling and thinking
how it is to hurt and how much fun to die
Is a world and a life that you know well
Vision impaired, THE LORD OF THE FLIES
The stench that you make is a drunkard's smell
First to a stumble and then to a crouch
using a stoner's dance you hit the ground
your existence unnoticed, your life a louse
with the toxins gone, reality found
although a rare moment your mind awake
you forget everything you did and said
your soul is a lie, your life is a fake
true peace and happiness is when you're dead
remember I loved you! the death note said
you leave this world with a bullet in head
closed mind
window of opportunity
jaded and dwindling behind
sparatic sense of unity
segregated by red tape lines
sparatic sense of unity
the innocence in a whore's eyes
love to hate
hate to love
omnipresent beings
watchful eyes from the heavens above
set into motion
our lives and our chosen fate
set into motion
decisions made late
angels fly with winged flutter
on the hope front beneath the gutter
trying is the first step to failure
failure the first step to try
I came I saw I lost I die
yes am I
Look me over
Learn to fly
Kill my
word
With a lie
I am yes
yes am I
death to the Queen and off with her head
sugarcoat the truth of the lies you've just said
the snake of deception coils itself around your still beating heart
as the laughter of dead babies pierces your soul like a poisoned blow dart
retards rule as independent thinkers are slain
run out of excuses, killings done in vain
the words from your mouth choke you on their way back in
as the trials and tribulations of life are just about to begin
AS DEATH'S HANDS BEGIN TO STRANGLE
YOU WANT IT TO GO AWAY, YOU WANT TO DIE
THERE IS JUST NO HOPE
dedicated to Virginia and Walter Lynch
swings its iron coffin lid shut
no more are we to be a part of this world
but this world becomes a part of us
and science becomes our religion
life no longer has meaning as we travel
down the road of self-satisfaction
and lust destroyed true love
victims of the common sin
more often creators of all mentioned above
lose their meaning, as we all unite to become one
gods because this isn't How it should be
in the depths of death's vast darkness lies
our reality.
is a lovely marker of our lives we'll never see
through blistering snow and the beautiful spring
it stands alone stubborn a sad somber thing
although it has thousands of brothers and sisters
it exists alone, quiet, never speaking; not a single friend
its life never lessens as it travels the sands of time
soon its forgotten and thus it lies
once was the resting place of birds not in the trees
I hope when I die mine will never fall
a liar and a charlatan
and my actions mean less
mine is that of a hypocrite's song
my pretty pure outer shell
harvests the soul of a demon
and the mind as well
in a land of darkness
your most powerful gun
for my blood lust comes from a devil
known only as a Vampire
and freedom for one and all
foreshadows the hidden agenda
on what is on all of our cerebral cortex
white men who fabricated a system
that will run our lives and substitute
as our moral conscience
and too yellow bellied to find out
young hot things and the power to destroy
the ability to think for one's self
are all that these power hungry megalomaniacs fancy
Put a scarlet letter on my forehead
for some weed
get out in seven
when violent offenders walk
the streets and someone
who drops Acid spends his
life getting it up the ass?
I'm not a Bible bearing Jesus freak
pelting stones at anyone different
so brand me for life
asians, native americans, and anyone else who
doesn't think exactly the same as I do
those rich white conservatives run the country
tell us what we can and cannot watch
what we can and cannot hear?
I don't want to be censored
Let me speak my mind
I let you speak yours
You don't do what I say
so why should I act different?
engulfed with hatred, lost forgotten
wish away worry with a serpents tongue
an empty void where a soul should be
lost in the lies of truths never said
feel something slipping, escaping, what can it be?
the idea has left, running away with sanity
pray your mind to sleep, faithless religion
letters dance around, the words I can't make out.
It makes no difference what you say,
I hate without discretion,
more so without reason.
My power is sanctioned with diplomatic capitalist treason.
it all belongs to me
set of demonic wings
sun sets deathly
darkness devours
all that is living
lights all that I see
the fire in your words
flesh set ablaze burning
singing sweet songs of grief, and regret
I hear the laughter of dead babies
I see the anger in your heart
time to end endless journeys
a journey that has yet to begin to start
infinite hallway, all locked doors
bloodied fists
time to wish, my only wish
I wish my soul the same
my voice I hear talking
thinking outside my brain
the ignorance that is reality?
or do you pretend to be
something shall I see?
death to democracy
majority rules nothing
power to the minority
in my sanity's anarchy
black and red banners wave
sappy emotions got me in a bind
engage in many wars against myself
talk about but it ain't no help
sometimes for fun I make myself sick
god told me to sacrifice a beast
couldn't do it instead had a veggie feast
I am a child, an animal, a woman shall see
the sun and the moon both were there
gave me some magic mushrooms fly through the air
the elephants are on my side I'll come through
got bitten by the queen of the flower
drank all my blood ain't got no power
I washed them in mucus careful not to spill
the god of the lint tried to capture me
I separated the particles, dumped into the sea
had a coronary from my pancake clod
stuck my hands and fingers in a toaster
lifted up my glass then ate the coaster
Head splitting, the chamber is so smoking warm
the bullet hole in your head is torn
It feels so good to take your name
a split-second ends the pain,
a brainless victim spilled on the streets,
burners make men out of meese,
and that's what I be,
I feel so worthless completely,
words and cream defeat me,
another just like me lays dead at my feet,
I don't want my fame,
just another pawn in the game,
a product of the system,
winning my own shame.
But what is it that I see?
Blue lights flashing after me.
Just me and a corpse, my Johnny in my hand,
I'm too ill to flee
let the pigs get me.
I'm sick of games that can never be won,
I run off blazing, just me and my gun.
Shots Explode,
no time to reload,
blood flows in my eyes,
I fall and I die.
unless you don't know me
reject my ways and I'll make your skin peel
difference is wrong
and you're different from me
In ways that I don't know
Except from what I can see
more so without reason
think differently without knowing
then my ignorance will kill
killing shows power
my power is strength
line up with your comrades
for final inspection
my strength is weak
make the opposition vaporize
so they won't seep through
the cracks in the walls
the strong and the weak
What is left is me
I am in between
with all its ties
once not remembered
truth replaced with lies
my mind is numb with emotion
my soul fell asleep
questions asked; waking
the best and worst I keep
who or why?
that one moment; to find I try
but what is it?
you and me, together we sit
the look on your face
your warmth in my arms
hearts beating in the same pace
I whispered to you something?
felt my breath on your ear
words with no meaning
forgotten and unclear
with all its ties
but I know what can happen
when I close my eyes
I ignore
love left standing
will walk out the door
and slam it!
right in my face
awakens me from slumber
left with sadness and disgrace
what were the reasons why?
at night I think in darkness
and to sleep I cry
what it will be
when I find my meaning
this time I'll see
but feelings We once had
with all its ties
once not remembered
truth replaced with lies
a time to reflect on pretend feelings
black and blue, all you can do
when the beating is done, sorry but I love you
repeated as often as often as the word hate
one is real the other a fake
when you say you love you cover your tracks
forget your regret, love never looks back
present and future is all love knows
you want what you want, but you can't let go
sometimes love hides in the gutter
other times love flies with winged flutter
love is perfect some might say
hide your true feelings
throw hate away
what is the night without the glorious day?
love everyone, hate no one
lost in endless confusion
when the feeling arrives in your soulless heart
keep hate the same
the two should never part.
soft light feelings are at ease,
I don't care what you say
I don't love you anyway.
Flash away blink blinking before sans sober eyes,
I wish, I follow, I fall and I die.
If not this happens than for one and all
In a time when to which comes the fall
of what not to say
and when comes the notion
throw it all away,
if not throw away then crush and destroy.
for nothing is real that does not happen to the individual.
dreams come true for those who steal them away
from others too naive in their ways
forget to protect what they hold true to themselves.
Fight or flight,
take action or run away
the choice is yours
but the repercussions outweigh the means.
Life is not a journey
but a game that you can never win.
when you have one you can never have the other
and when both attained
a new desire enters the situation on a whole new level.
I came, I saw
I threw a wrench in the wheels that grind out society.
Fuck it ALL!!!
turn around, smile
the warmth of the flutter in your eyes
send chills up my spine
drives me wild into senseless stupor
I wish the right expressions
fill the air with almost a gentle breeze
Wake me whole, break me today
all the right answers
with nothing to say.
I see what's not there
and what's not there I Be.
I AM SPECIAL
Love me
I AM GRAND
Love me
I'll show you wonders
things you'll never understand,
I violate you,
you violate me,
A BASIC Understanding
of what's not to be.
give it to me
stick the knife of your conviction
in my heart and you will see
there will be no blood escaping me
my heart is full of sorrow and
my soul is not there
uncomfortable silence is in the air
I stop, I listen, I look, I see
me looking at you
and you at me
Poison in my words
Secrets in my Eyes
In this silence we try to hide
who we really are?
what we feel!
where and why?
my hands are now shaking
a quiver in my voice
your beauty escapes me
I want to rejoice
but I hold back
no reasons why
Life's not worth when sees try
has right the thought for learning
trampled heart under the light she glows
nonetheless the sight remains;
stronger hence the anger grows
and with it grows the fear of flesh
-
soul of numb, dulled by mixed confusion
worries the discontent for disconcern
-
in the fire words set ablaze
glowing yellow red, burning
in the grave my body grows
and in the body the crimson cold is churning
-
the last drops of kindess form like kisses on my neck
I can smell their honey sweetness and taste your disrespect
-
use our fears reluctantly
and together we create comfort of ignorance
-
tomorrow I'll never die
and with you still today
and in my arms you'll never cry
clutching our sweet disease.
speaks to me at times
angelic actions cover my desires
-
with truth there is pain
and with pain there is joy
hurt me till I climax
and beat me till I see
pleasure mixes with my motives, and hatred in my eyes
all I know through all of this
is that it's you I love and despise.
the smile on your face, or the perfume you wear
angel, angel it's in your guise
the look of love in your caring eyes
-
as I walk hence in the lost lingering years of yore
your vast beauty escapes me as never before
the memory fades, I plead to implore
I still love, you love no more
an uncomfortable silence fills the air
I speak of love no longer there
-
but angel, angel can't you see
your aloof persuasion is breaking me
angel, angel don't you know
unaffecting love forsaken will never grow
-
I'll never forget that one spring day
in golden sun filled meadow together we lay
I'll never forget what you taught me to see
as I kissed you and you kissed me
-
angel, angel where did you go?
as we follow in the footsteps of lost love we know
angel, angel why did you die?
in my hands your life I'm clutching,
I have no emotion left to cry.