I actually believed at the time that I was doing the best thing in my children's interests.
From the day I received the news about this tragedy, I stopped using drugs. No withdrawal symptoms, nothing.
Some may say shock, but in hindsight I was so ashamed of myself, and not having the ability to be a responsible person or Father, I could not continue to live like I was.
Pastor Noel Gallagher and his wife Linda never gave up on me. They had known me for 2 years, and tried to tell me about a "Christian Lifestyle", which I largely ignored.
I rang Noel and told him I was up here to kill the offender. Noel had conversations with me about forgiveness, but at that time, that was the last thing I wanted to hear.
