Legacy: August 13, 1996

Ripples
on the river
that I call life
in time I know
I will be forgotten
except for these poems
that I write
offering some light
I hope
to the future ones
who will be here
after I'm dead

ripples 
rebounding
from the past
and mixing with
the present
to form the future

it's strange
for five years
I've struggled to
get a better life
to make myself
a better future
other than that
job at a factory
that I hated

I've made it
I've graduated
with double majors
psychology
and sociology
I'm smarter wanting
to make a difference
in my world

and what kind
of job did I land
right out of college

well
a factory job
of course

but there is
a difference
it's a matter
of choice now
not a forced issue

I choose it
to find my way
into a different world
in one where 
darkness reigns
but still
there is light
and hope

for I proved 
to myself
what I can do

always before
I only got to
the application stage
on my own

but after graduation
I received interviews
four interviews with
three applications

the other jobs
were in my field
but it wasn't 
my knowledge
that prevented me
from getting a job

but I lacked
a car and
knowing CPR

one easily remedied
the other takes
some doings and
a job for money

thus a factory job
that's easy to get
to provide for a
better job in the future

a way to gain a car
and more knowledge
I'm not done yet
with my education

I'm still learning
even on the job
how people interact
how we work together
and deal with problems

what better way 
to learn psychology
than by watching
people in real life

in my mind
real life is
far superior to
anything in a book

I wonder though
I spent five years
for no obvious gain
I work in a factory
as I did before

I hold nothing
but God leads me
in Him lies the answer
and my only hope
to reach my dreams

I don't know maybe
I'm reaching for illusions
but everything went
according to plan
even this job
I saw coming

just as a means
to reach an end
without any clue
to what lies ahead

as ripples rebound
changing mixing
into a tangled skein
one where anything is
possible on my voyage
on the river of time

Paul Vernon Deffendall
August 13, 1996




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