| 1-1-00 Still Down Stairs! A New Year has dawned and still is all the same nonsense. Now Mr. AssAdmin is due here on Monday or Tuesday, never in a rush when it does not have a benefit for them. 1-2-00 Still Down Stairs!! Still trying to quit smoking, the stress level is rather high. I will continue to quit till I just conquer it. If not by the time I reach a General Population, then I'll ask the Medical Dept to approve me for some help and take it to court when I can't get the needed medical assistance. 1-3-99 Still Down Stairs! Another day, the dawn is only upon us, but, have not moved yet. I long for a piece of toast this morning. Odd but such lil things are missed. Well mr ass admin did not bother to show up again today! What else is new! 1-4-00 Finally got upstairs. Now its just a matter of time now before I get back to General Population. The stress level lowered soon as I was told to move. Life is a roller coaster, the lows must be experienced to better appreciate the highs. 1-5-00 Group was about some nonsense that the Counselor didn't even understand though he attempted futily to make sense of it but, he did not get past what is Power! 1-6-00 Got to play Handball today and while I can feel the soreness, it did do a lot to relieve some of the tension. All at home seems to be going well! 1-7-00 Mail call seems to be getting longer again I figured after the Holidays the mail would get quicker again. I guess Internal Affairs has other ideas for the mail these days. 1-8-00 Received a letter, ten stamps stolen out of the envelope. What a petty crime considering the Fed time one can get if caught! I do intend to contact the Post Office and get these thieves on the other side of this fence, see how they look at the bullshit games they play then. 1-9-00 Miami won, good day, need I say more! :p ! Marino looked better than he's looked in awhile, as for myself I'm focused and working on myself everyday attempting to learn and understand at least one thing per day. 1-10-00 America On Line purchased Time-Warner today and if the deal is approved it'll make the Company worth 350 Billion Dollars. The validation of the Internet valuation is at stake and will strengthen the other Internet stocks with other mergers on the horizon! 1-11-00 Well seems they changed store delivery day. Fucked my store up, nothing new about that. This place is run by the most incompetent peo;e I've ever seen. Still are shorting my account over $255 and nothing short of a Postal Investigation and Law suit will wake these brain dead idiots up. Got another one of those "I'll put you in for special circumstances" con remarks today. This time from V. 1-12-00 Went to yard, played handball. Didn't play too badly, just pictured the hand ball as the gov't and banged it hard as I could. Can't do that in the real world if I want to stay on the legal side of the law, but, they can't change my ways to relieve stress. 1-13-00 Spent the morning writing letters to help me escape this dungeon. Got to go to this "group counseling" which is another attempt at the Gov't experiment with Mind Control. They fail to account for the fact that mind control can not work because it deals with the illusion that the tighter the grip on something the more it'll ooze through the fingers. Rebellion will be the eventual result. **Note from Jake** Life in Phase III is a little easier as they are at least allowed some minimal recreation. Outlaw Man at this point has become accustomed to starvation, and continues to battle to keep his mind intact. 1-14-00 The thought of today should be focused on the life of tomorrow. Though the future is not guaranteed to anyone it can never be ignored in my decision making process for the consequences of the today lay ahead in the tomorrow! Not much new has happened today. 1-15-00 The inner turmoil of man directly is related to the battles not confronted. The deep soul searching may bring great pain, but in the long run will bring greater Peace & Joy. Man can never be real nor himself until he first digs within to find the inner man that he is! The masks must be removed and brutal honest & acceptance of his own actions & consequences must be honored. Only then can he move forward. 1-16-00 The world's life cycle of all living beings are based on Natural Balance. If the planet slips in it's rotation sl lil as 1/4 inch either toward the sun or away from it lif no longer exists. The balance of reproductice powers between plant life, prey & predators keep one another in check so perfectly that each betters the other and all need the role of the other. Man's manipulation has scarred Erda (Mother Earth) badly. Which will happen first is my question. Will Man kill the Earth or will man become extinct. For Man will not listen and get back in tune with Erda's balance. Yet Man cannot live without her nurturing life sources. Ironic Man is his own worst enemy. how befitting he is also his own predator. many may see this as a negative comment, but, reality dictates that to correct a pattern of behavior, one must first acknowledge it's very existence. 1-17-00 No group today because of Martin Luther King Jr. Day. A day this country celebrates a giant for Civil & Human Rights of the oppressed. What a hypocritic thing to do when this Country gets more oppressive and inhumane every year in it's treatment of the poor & disenfranchised as the prisons bulge and the answer still remains longer sentences, harsher conditions and Mint Control units. Would Dr. King look at what this Country is doing to it's people with a favorable eye!?! 1-18-00 COLD!!! It is vry icy outside, I thought of going to yard this morning until I looked down at the Bobo I would have to wear, so fearing Frost Bite of my toes, I was forced to endure more time on lock-down status. If I had been allowed proper clothing and footwear, I'd of enjoyed the freshness of the cold air. 1-19-00 Had a family visit which was very good, but also very restrictive. Couldn't get out of our chair. That really is terrible that one can not be affectionate or stretch one's leg. 1-20-00 Today was turely uneventful. Snowed out which usually would purify the air, but the air in this city really is beyond short term repair. Stayed in from yard. 1-21-00 Slept half the day away. Heard on the news that physicists have discovered a way to prove the Quantum Theory. They have discovered how to send a normal atom from Regular Space into the quantum realm. This experiment surely will be a Nova episode and I look forward to it, Hopefully in the not too distant future. 1-22-00 Weather seems to be rather cold recently. Scientists have found via satellites an overly large pocket of warm water, which may be a reason for alot of the warmer weather. This may be worth further study. 1-23-00 Found a new avenue to study the Political Sciences and how to understand why those who are suppose to help people turn even harder than the granite buildings that house their offices. 1-24-00 Can time get any slower or More boring. Iowa Caucuses have very lil surprises but, I believe there will be some real twists and turns over the next three months once things got more intense. Commodities are worth noting as a look for short term investments this month. 1-25-00 Serious snow, first of the year. Group was a bullshit on prejudice. It may of made some sense, but. with the wing noise and my bad hearing most of what I heard i could not make out. I still shous be able to answer the two questions proposed, though it can't be overly based on the tape. 1-26-00 No yard today. No personal loss to me, I wasn't bringing myself out there with these BoBo's no how. Over slept this morning and the day was basically lazy. Learned a lil about Nature today on PBS a good channel to watch if one has too much time. Today is a very special day in that it is Jake's Birthday and also my sister-in-law Darlene. **Note from Jake** Outlaw Man was not allowed to bring his shoes, and was given a pair of prison shoes about 4 sizes too large. These were the BoBos. 1-27-00 My cellie threw his back out las night and the incompeence of the Medical department showed itself when without an examination to find out what was actually wrong, they gave him a packet of 600 mg Motrin and sent him on his way. Today's group will be on Anger and Aggression, with the imcompetence running this place, anger is a natural state in this Animal House. However, I'm disciplined enough to use it as a positive energy motivator. 1-28-00 Got screwed out of yard again today. They tried to get us all to go into the Kennels instead of yard. I personally refused and returned to my cell. I will not tolerate being treated like an animal. 1-29-00 Philosophical thoughts wwm to be flowing today. He who will not reason is a Bigot, he who cannot is a fool, and e who dares not is a slave. I also recall what Robert E. Lee said in a letter to General Beauregard, "True Patriots sometimes requires of men to act exactly contrary, at one period, to that which it does to another." 1-30-00 I wonder if the American people are totally defeated by the ruling powers or just fear them to the point of being paralyzed to act. For they complain of the corruption of the Government at every turn but do nothing to reclaim that which is theirs, freedom! Maybe they need to feel the power of the Declaration of Independence to honor this nations forebearers, especially where it says: "Whenever any form of Government becomes destructive of these ends [inalienable rights of Life, Liberty and the Pursuit of Happiness] it is the Right of the people to alter or abolish it, and to institute new Government." All the cries this Government doesn't work, are meaningless until the people stop crying and begin acting. Do we give the Government the right to serve us or does the Government dictate the lives we're allowed to lead? Who is free that must be concerned that his thoughts and ideals must be politically correct? If we are to be a free nation, we must be ready to sacrifice our comforts to take the Power back! All the Control Units across the nation will not break the spirit of man, nay, they will only strengthen the ties amd make clear who the common enemy is. 1-31-00 A week straight that they sent exactly two pieces of mail over for the entire wing. So I guess everyone of of every friend, lover & relative of every person on this wing must of stopped writing the same exact time. Does this sound correct or an insult of normal intelligence. I guess they believe their own lies of how dumb Prisoners are! V. told me today that he would speak with the director to get an answer about my sprcial circumstance. Yeah, all these counselors have used such Bullshit lines (even the director) since late October 99! NEXT PREV HOME |