| 12-1-99 The dawn of a new day, a new month, a time when I care only about the growth of my family and myself. The lies about those who've helped me through the deaths of family members, so on and so on, meant to convince me the bonds are for evil purposes. Walk a mile in my shoes before you judge my steps! **Note from Jake** This is a part of the programming in gang units--to teach you that your bonds with your brothers are for evil purposes. 12-2-99 Today was rather boring, but, it seems since those interviews with the media the officers are getting real petty. None of them have given me any hassles personally, not matter though, I know what the game is & how to play it. 12-3-99 Well I start week thirteen in Phase II. If this program benefitted the Prisoner, they'd make a point of calculating it properly. Most people who see this up close realize the farcity it really is. 12-4-99 Another weekend her. The last few days, I received mail from a few pople and will spend most of the time this weekend responding to my mail. I also have to get my Yule Tide wishe out this week to thos I most care for and about. Can't have cards sent so a personal letter will have to suffice. 12-5-99 Finished catching up with my mail. My hand is a bit cramped from holding this pen. The day was a productive one. 12-6-99 Today was a Productive day, got a few more Holiday wishes written, I do think it is very unfair that we cannot just purchase Holiday Greeting Cards to send out on such days and if & when Mr. Ass-sociate Administrator comes around, I intend to speak my mind on this Though it really won't do much good now! 12-7-99 Nonsense is the order of the day. The director of the "Program" denied his own words of seven weeks ago. If a man does not honor his own word, he is not a man in my eyes. So eith no disrespect for myself. I must choose not to respect this person who does not respect himself as he puts no honor in his words. Why must these people feel the need to lie, is the question I struggle with today. What compels a man to lower himself to be a liar and bring shame to his family name? The positive on this is I know now not to trust his word, as it is without meaning. Trust remains with myself. Maybe this person will go far in this gov't, but, he will live this world and leave this plane of existence without honor. He will not rise to a higher existence when he exits this one. I must always remember this and direct myself never to allow myself to sink to his level. He however did not disagree that the time outside his "Counseling Program" were in fact inhumane. Based on the program criteria and even taking his statement and/or beliefs that his "Counseling Program" is humane, which I personally disagree with, the time in inhumane conditions are not justified by the minute amount of time in the "Counseling Program". During this nine month "program" at a rate of two hours per week during Phase II and Phase III (6 months) there adds up to be 52 hours in the Counseling sessions as opposed to 45,308 not in Counseling sessions in which you must endure the uncontested inhumane conditions. If we further break down the time into minutes and seconds, you can see the torment of the nhumane conditions grow. Time in the Counseling session is in minutes 3,120 minutes in the sessions and 2,718,480 minutes not in the sessions. Total in program would be 2,721,600 minutes. As you can clearly see the inhumane conditions are almost the complete time even if the Counseling Sessions weren't veiled attempts at mind manipulation and mind control tactics developed by the US Military, of which I was taught as a US Marine Recon agent. In seconds it becomes 187,200 seconds in "session" and 133,108,800 seconds not in "session" with a total "program" being 133,196,000 seconds. How can one not see through the lies that are before them unless they choose to blind themselves to the truth with lies! **Note from Jake** I see there are facts that I have previously written that need to be cleared up and corrected. I do try to be as accurate as possible, so I do apologize for this. 12-8-99 The time period which gets followed here has me still being in Phase II well into the thirteenth week. Movement is slow and there doesn't seem to be much alternatives but endure the hardships. That which doesn't break you only makes you stronger. 12-9-99 Still have not seen any shipments out to population from upstairs. My movement is depending on it. But the tree months is complete today at the end of the thirteenth week. Must begin to prepare for the Yule Tide Season. No way to get any Pork for the feasting days of this biggest of ascurstuist Holidays. wll this just turn into another lie or be a pleasant surprise and be the truth, but, Counselor Mr. L. told me today he is putting in the papers for my release back to General Population. We will see if anything happens. 12-10-99 Mr. Ass. Admin. came around this afternoon and once agoin confronted him about the business office not correcting my money since late June. He assured me it would be taken care of and that it takes time cause they are "very thorough", like I'd belive that new lie. Wen my money gets fixed, then I'll believe it. **Note from Jake** There is a group of advocates who specifically rant and rave about the needs and injustices to the men in this particular unit. They check on almost all Prisoners when asked to do so by family or friends. I was told that nearly every Prisoner in this unit was missing large sums of money from their cash accounts. 12-11-99 Still downstairs, don't know when they'll ship some people out to make these moves--but, I'm not happy that the "special circumstance" apparently means that I should have to endure even longer conditions. More situations arise that need solutions. 12-12-99 Another weekend gone. It is simply a piece of time done away with. None of this will mean anything in the larger scheme of things. Still must learn a thing new each day to grow despite the situation my oppressors force upon me. I will not let it mean anything! 12-13-99 Still no movement upstairs. I'm over the three months now and this is getting very tiresome. Can't seem to get these incompetents to do anything right or in a reasonable time. I'd say they don't realize the anger they cause, but, I think they actually do know. **Note from Jake** Deliberately building up hope and then dashing it to bits is another common mind control tactic. 12-14-99 Today confirmation that the Business Office screwed up everyone's account. Makes me know I won't get my account fixed without filing a law suit now for sure. If someone in the Private Sector screwed up this badly they'd be looking for work, but, this place probably will give them a raise and/or promotion. **Note from Jake** And they classify these as "frivolous" law suits..... 12-15-99 Still downstairs now way past the time for my move upstairs. For someone that was being "pushed through quickly" surely seems like I'm being purposely fucked with very seriously! Journal till I'm upstairs will be limited. 12-16-99 Still downstairs, still no contact visits! 12-17-99 Still downstairs, still no yard, Kennel don't count! 12-18-99 Still downstairs, another weekend in hell! 12-19-99 Still downstairs, still no commissary! 12-20-99 Still downstairs, another week begins! 12-21-99 Still dowstairs, silence in group is the agenda of protest! 12-22-99 Sill downstairs, Word is this won't change this year because mr. ass.admin. went on vacation till the 28th and no one can move till his return. This is total nonsense and goes to the heart of my belief in the incompetence of this place. 12-23-99 Still downstairs. Still did not get my holiday Card from Mom with the $50 money order in it that was sent on 12-14-99 though I did get a letter sent from across the country post marked 12-18-99. 12-24-99 Well on this day I woke shortly after 6am, hopefully getting my sleeping pattern back on track. Still downstairs. No question that I'll be down here over another weekend, at least I am single locked. 12-25-99 Well today is Christmas. Still downstairs. 12-26-99 Still downstairs. Well today begins Kwanzaa, which I really do not understand and if Mr. L is tomorrow's counselor even though it is suppose to be on Anger Aggression, I think I'll ask him for a Cultural Lesson on this so I can understand its roots and custom better. Could end up a very enlightening hour. 12-27-99 Still Downstairs! Mr. Ass. Admin. is suppose to come back tomorrow and then supposedly moves will be made. I will believe it when i actually see it happen. Thought of the day. The brighter the man, the more he has to learn. 12-28-99 Still downstairs! Yesterday "group" was given a lesson dealing with knowing the signs of your anger, I learned that anger is something I've been feeling for so long, nonstop, that it is my normal state and I would think something was wrong if I wasn't angry. Anger is my state of being. I think I can track it back to when I was around seven and have not had a day without anger since. I've adjusted to exist within it's parameters and florish in spite of it. 12-29-99 Still Down Stairs! Had more lies told to me today. This time by V. Cant get a visit. Mr. Ass Admin was suppose to come up today, but didn't. Incompetence still runs ranpant in this place. 12-30-99 Still Down Stairs! Mr ass admin was suppose to make his rounds today, but once again did not. Wonder when the incometence of this place will finally be investigated. A blind man could see the nonsense, so why doesn't anyone look at these idiots they're paying so much money to! 12-31-99 Still Down Stairs! Just a short few hours left, Still have not seen mr ass admin make his rounds. Why should today be any different than any other day. Incompetence doesnt' change till it's faced and worked on to be improved. NEXT PREV HOME |