updated: 11.30.02
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november 2002
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~[\.:second:./]~
RANDY~ you're the BESTEST!!!!!! i love you, BABE~!!!!!
*sigh* randy made my evening sooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo happy. i was feeling...ummm....kinda juss...whatevers all day. nothing special. juss blah. and i decided to call randy to see if i could finally talk to him (he's always busy or something). and i got to talk to him. and he was soooooooooooooooo cute~ he made my entire MONTH~ ^^ *MUAH*~ i love you, randall tadashi kishimoto~ :)
i need a randy, here in texas. 2929~~~~
i woke up at 1:30 pm today. lol. wow...i hadn't slept that much in a long time. i only woke up at that time cuz someone called and woke me up. otherwise, i prolly would have slept a lil longer. but i had (and still have) a headache~ prolly from sleeping too long~ *shrug* argh...
but iss all good cuz i ate samgyupsal today. NOIIIICE~ mmmmm *drool* i'm sleepy. lol. i fell asleep @ mark's place after dinner tho. at like..9:20 pm-ish, i was getting bored....cuz mark was on the phone..and i wasn't talking to n/e one on the phone...so i fell asleep. next thing i know, i get a call on my cellie. it was leese, but she said she'd call back. i looked @ the time and realized i'd been sleeping for an hour. the light was off and i was alone in the room. she called back again after i had fallen asleep for another half hour or so, and she invited me to go bowling. i know my daddy would've said no, so i told her i couldn't....then i fell back asleep. LOL. wussup w/me and sleep these days???
so yea....around 12:30, i decided i should leave, so i got up and said g'bye and left. mark's mom told my daddy not to wake me up~ to juss let me sleep till the next morning. but i don't like sleeping in other ppl's houses overnight too much. i mean...i like sleeping over, but it's weird for me to sleep somewhere other than my own bed. *shrug* i guess iss cuz i can't get as restful of sleep, u know? so yea....i came home. *yawn* and i'm sleepy already. kekeke.... i juss came online cuz i wanted to post about how cute randy was tonight....heehee. if the world had more randy's....*sigh* it'd be a much more loving, caring, pleasant world. ^^
~[\.:ninth:./]~
*sniff sniff* off i go....i need to work on my research paper...i can't believe how much i've been putting it off....errrr
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~[\.:thirteenth:./]~
~[\.:fourteenth:./]~
ack. living in browntown so far from my hometown is so frickin hard. :( i think the hardest thing about it is knowing that everyone over there is growing up so much....and i can't be there to experience it...to be a part of it...
the other day, i asked someone why he was acting all aloof to me, after not being like that for a while. his excuse was that he's juss like that. i told him that was bs...that he didn't act like that to my friend. his excuse then was that he had known her "since she was in diapers." i mean....that's all good. but....where does that leave me? the only person i've known for a long time .... that lives here in tx is....my daddy. i haven't even know my step-mom or step-bro that long. so what the heck. i'm the only one that loses here....
when i hear shiz like that, i feel like crying. i'm not all that crazy-emotional to the point that i cry at everything, but i have my moments...these moments where i juss bust out CRYING. out of nowhere, triggered by something small. like that. i seriously felt like crying.
last night was a nice evening cuz i got to talk to some ppls i hadn't talked to in a while. like...PAUL KIM. my BUD. the HIGH of my life~ ^^ didn't get to talk to him all that long, but it was nice juss hearing his voice. i love you, paul!!! *SIGH*~ miss ya, dood.
and...then, i talked to mitchell oppa. he's so cute. keke. but then we got cut off cuz his phone. errrrrrr.....oppa.....u need a new phone. forreals. but yeah...and then i called robert. my lil white boy. my honey. my sweetness~ ^_~ *MUAH*~ i mean... *MAUH* keke......[sloppy kiss] hahahahah. sucha qt. i mean....this boy...i met him when he was a freshy...and i was a junior in hs. i adore this kid. he is my sweetness. he makes me miss cali soooooooooooooo much!!
and i talked to PAUL AHN. he's my #1. i mean... #2. i mean...#1. :) i had seen someone that reminded me of him yesterday, in the morning. i usually call paul about once a week, but i didn't get to talk to him this past weekend. so i REALLY REALLY wanted to hear his voice. and he was being suuuch a cutie! OMG~ lol. i really really miss paul. i haven't seen him in about a year now...and he's my BEST FRIEND! dood. i'm going thru withdrawals!!!!
see....so many of my loved ones are soooo far away. and i know i can talk to them on the phone or talk to them online, but i wanna SEE them. i wanna SEE the changes they go thru. i wanna EXPERIENCE stuff with them. my biggest fear is that people will forget about me...and that my place in their lives will be replaced. when they still play such an important role in my life.
iss all good meeting new people. new friends. new loved ones. but...it's always nice kicking back with old friends...and making new memories with them too...that's what everyone here in browntown gets to do. everyone...except for me...and chinch. errrrr....poor us. hahahaha...i'm sucha pitymonger. i need a trip to cali to revive myself~~~~
~[\.:seventeenth:./]~
aaahhhhhhh......sunday morning. i feel so relaxed. i love sunday mornings. cuz...by now, i'm relaxed...and i'm not stressing about going to school tomorrow. i mean...i enjoy school since i'm taking pretty easy courses (and not very many, at this point), but at the same time, i'm sick of all the drama, yannow? and the immaturity. i mean...i'm immature enough. i don't wanna hafta deal with OTHER ppl's immaturity too. kekeke..i'm a hypocrite, huh? argh..my bad.
i seriously don't understand mr. a's problem. dood...this guy...is juss so not nice, lately. he used to be really cool. and the only reason i keep trying to stay friends is cuz i still think he is...but maybe it's not worth it. i'm hoping that, next semester, when i don't take so many music classes (maybe i'll take juss band or something), i'll be able to meet new ppls. NON-music ppls. i LOOOOVE music ppls, but...i need to meet different types of ppls. most of the music ppls, minus a few--which includes reesa--are kinda...umm...sLOOOOw.... so yea...i need to be surrounded by some...umm...different ppls. and i'm sure reesa's gunna be arguing that, in brownsville, i won't be able to find n/e intelligent ppls...LOL
i really, really, really wanna visit cali this winter. but it's kinda late to buy plane tickets, i think. the prices are extremely expensive. errrrr. the only semi-decent pricing i found is out of SAN ANTONIO. san antonio is like...a 4-5 hour drive from my home. grrrrrrrrrr. what to do...what to do... it's like...driving down to burbank from berkeley to go to ny or something like that. what the heck. grrrrrr.
i need to work and save up money...where should i apply~~~~ hmmmm.... prolly not a clothing store, cuz then i'll end up buying clothes. or may i SHOULD work @ a clothing store so i'll get mad discounts and SAVE money when i DO buy clothing. but then again, being surrounded with tons of clothing with so few clothing myself will only tempt me to buy more. ARGH
ahhhh... why do i always fall for the guys that i can't have?? that i shouldn't go for...i swear...i have problems. how can a guy have those EYES..that juss DRAW you in, making u feel like u're the only one to him that matters in the world..the only one in his life...and then, the next day, make u feel like u don't exist?? *SIGH*. how pathetic am i...for falling for those lines. how pathetic am i to be still hung up over this....
i need to find a good guy. a good, tall guy. i was thinking, the other day, that i should juss wait till i either move back to cali...or move to austin or wherevers...then again, i suppose i shouldn't really be looking n/e wayz, right? cuz..they appear out of nowhere when u're NOT looking. ARGH. but i WASN'T looking. and HE came around...and...i dunno if i screwed it up...or if it was juss screwed up from the beginning...or if it was juss too complicated to ever work out. and...hmmm...
maybe i should have juss....never let n/e thing happen? blah. we would have been way better off without all these complications. we could've been really tite friends. woulda shoulda coulda. . . . . . .
"believe only half of what you see...and nothing of what you hear." if i had only heard those words earlier. it would have saved me a lot of trouble...and emotional pain...
~[\.:eighteenth:./]~
i'm biting off my ddalgi nally~~~~ ^^
Section 1: General
11. Ever gone skinny dipping?: HAH. ewww.
12. What are you watching?: blinking IM boxes
18. Favorite Saying: "yo, did yall check me when that hottie was all up in my koolaid? yea, i was lookin to break off a lil sumpin-sumpin but my crew gave me tha foh-wun-wun on that skank and she's all about the bling-bling"
19. Favorite Fast Food: mc donald's cheeseburgers, taco bell chalupas, great potato & steak co's baked potatos or 1/4 pounders, ummm...iono.... too many options.....
21. Favorite Alcoholic Drink: seagram's fuzzy navel. yuuuummm
22. When Do You Go To Sleep: when i'm sleepy. regardless of hw...
26. Favorite holiday: new year's?
Section 2: THE FUTURE:
Section 3: HAVE YOU EVER:
Section 4: WHICH IS BETTER:
Section 5: WHEN WAS THE LAST TIME YOU:
Section 6: WHAT IS:
Section 7: WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT:
~[\.:nineteenth:./]~
whoops. i juss called & woke up ORANGE ~ [rick]
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*YAAAAAWN* i can't believe how nerdy i've been so far this weekend.....
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so yea...i actually did homework friday night and saturday morning. how sad is that? hahaha.. i'm trying to be a lil bit more nerdy. trying to make up a lil for lost time. and...i need to go home soon (@ pc bang) and finish up w/my essay~~~
hmmmm...i hadn't chased someone around for a loooong time. since what...high school? i was @ my piano kid's house...and we were done w/lessons. he & his lil bro were playing...throwing spitballs at each other in the living room. i told them to stop so i could leave. i got my stuff and started heading toward the door when i feel a nice, wet spitball on the back of my neck. GROSS. i threw all my crap down and started after my piano kid.
i chased him several times around the house but he wouldn't stop, even when i was pulling on his shirt. he was SCRRRREd. furrells... ^^ LOL. and they were both impressed @ how fast & scary i could be. lol. kids...*shaking head*
dang it....i need to get home, but i need to d/l something. grrrrrr. ummm...o crap....i think these rings are stuck. i juss bought these rings....and they were a LIL tight. but...i could get them on & off. but now, iono. maybe my fingers got swollen??? ergh...
~[\.:twenty-eighth:./]~
happy thanksgiving~
1. Name: Eugenie Hanul Kim
2. Nicknames: too many to list. i think i have a short list on my info page...
3. Feet size: varies from women's 9-10. in men's...7-8
4. Do you have a crush: not exactly..
5. Age: frickin old. 20
6. Age you act: emmm....16?
7. Where Do You Live: muy ghetto browntown
8. Where you want to live: maybe san diego, ca. i love it there...somewhere near the beach, hopefully
9. Birthplace: Harbor City, CA
10. Favorite Salad Dressing: that sesame oil & vinegar stuff...
13. Last person you talked to: in person? my mommie. on the phone? reesa. on IM? mitchell oppa
14. Favorite movie: check my info page...
15. Favorite Book: still life with rice by helie lee
16. Favorite Type of music: rap, r&b, soul, k-pop, pop, lotsa stuffs....
17. Favorite types of cars: 2001 honda civic... hahaha....jp. ummm...porsche 911 turbo...
20. Favorite Ice Cream: rocky road
23. Most Embarrassing Moment: so many to name...something embarassing happens to me everyday
24. Stupidest Person you know: there are a few music majors i have in mind...
25. Craziest Person you know: again, i have a few music majors i have in mind
27. Favorite Food: korean, mexican, italian, american, etc, etc, etc...
28. Favorite Song: mabup ae sung
29. Favorite Television Show(s): will & grace, friends, simpsons, family guy (cancelled), spongebob squarepants, hey arnold...
30. Favorite Radio Station: 1079 KVLY [chris kelly~~~~~], and the ghetto stations~
31. Favorite junk food: ice cream. is that considered junk food? if not, then....buffalo wings? ^^
32. Favorite sappy love song: s'wonderful by diana krall, spend my life with you by eric benet & tamia
33. Favorite color: orange, yellow
34. Favorite Shoes: my dc's or etnies
1. School: maybe UT
2. Where You Want To Live: see section 1 #8.
3. How Many Kids You Want: 5-ish
4. What Kind Of Job You Want: h.s. math teacher, maybe
5. Wedding song: spend my life with you by eric benet & tamia
6. Song in your head: s'wonderful by diana krall
1. Been In Jail: juss visiting
2. Done Drugs: nope. i tried ciggies....but thass it
3. Run Away From Home: nope
4. Hit A Girl: not hard...
5. Lied: yes
6. Stolen Anything: i stole a pack of gum when i was like 5
7. Broken A Bone: nope
8. Cheated On A Test: unfortunately, yes. not something i'm proud of...
9. Cheated On A Boy/Girlfriend: nope
10. Gotten Drunk: nope
11. Been With Two guys/guys At Once: nuh uh
12. Been In The Hospital: for very brief periods of time
13. Let a friend cry on your shoulder: many-a-time
14. Fell asleep in the shower/bath: maybe
15. Gone to Church: course
16. Never slept during a night: it was hard, but i did it several times...
17. Ever been on a motorcycle or motorbike: yesh. on hun's. i want my own!
18. Been to a camp: retreat camp....
19. Sat in a restaurant w/o ordering: i shink sho...
20. Seen someone die: don shink sho
21. Gone a week w/out shaving: maybe
22. Didn't wash your hair for a week: ew. no
23. Broken something valuable: not like that.
24. Thought you were in love: hahaha. yea...but it was a diff kinda love i mistook it for...
25. Streaked the streets: EWWWWWW. no
26. Screamed at someone for no reason: yea....hahahaha. it was funnyyy
27. Said I love you and meant it: not in that man/woman type of way..
28. Been hurt by a guy/girl you loved: nuh uh
29. Stayed up till 4 am on the phone: hahah...past that, even...
1. Coke Or Pepsi: dr. pepper
2. Cats Or Dogs: chinchillas. kekeke....no. dogs.
3. DVDs or VHS: iMAgination~
4. Deaf Or Blind: wth?
5. Pools Or Hot Tubs: sauna
6. Television Or Radio: computer
7. CDs Or MP3's: LPs
8. Apples or oranges: grapefruit
9. Gap or Old Navy: banana republic
1. Took a shower: this morning
2. Cried: a couple months ago?
3. Watched a Disney movie: been a while. maybe...4 or 5 months?
4. Given/gotten a hug: everyday ^^ kissies too
5. Been to the movies: friday night
1. Your Fondest Memory Of This year: *shrug* ummm...one of the memories w/alice, prolly ^^
2. Your Most Prized Possession: ummm....my cellie? kekeke. or...car? or...drum key? kekeke
3. The Thing That Makes You The Happiest: music. YAY!
4. Your Favorite Food For Breakfast: all american breakfast. w/daddy's spuds...eggs, toast or bagel...yummmm
5. Your Favorite Food For Dinner: korean food. YUMMMM
6. Your Favorite Slow Song: let's stay together by al green, spend my life w/u by eric benet & tamia
7. Your Ideal BF/GF: this is somewhere in my info....i think?
1. Bill Clinton: hahahhhahaha....my physics teacher sorta talks like him!! hahahah
2. Love at First Site: infatuation @ first site
3. Abortion: pro life
4. Teenage smoking: ewwww
5. Pot: EWWWWW
6. Eating disorders: so sad....listen to UNPRETTY and watch that music video!
7. Rap: awwww GYEAAAAAAA
8. Marilyn Manson: uhhhh...cool eye colors....
9. Premarital sex: tisk tisk
10. Suicide: cry for help/attention?
11. Drinking: excess isn't good tho...
12. Life: ummmm....interesting
13. Death: meeting with GOD...
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