It was important to know good from evil so I could evaluate my personal behavior.  Trusting myself was unacceptable because I was an evil child who had wished her mother dead and her wish had been granted.  How could I trust a person with such power to to do evil?  Even if that person was me.

Now that I understand I was not the power behind my mothers death my instincts suggest truth and justice are more fitting objectives.
The truth is my mother was one of my abusers.  Justice was remembering what had occurred and why I had wished her dead.

To fill the void left by becoming aware of my own behavior I started analyzing social problems, political agendas and how our fearless leaders try to manipulate and control how we view each other.

Not long ago I was contemplating the ethical values we esteem in America.  We want to believe our values are based on religious principles.  If we valued religious teachings women who stay home to raise their children would be considered a cherished resource with pay and retirement benefits.  The obvious conclusion was Americans value anything that provides possessions and status within the community no matter how honest or moral the means. We don't even value human life, we talk about abortion being evil but once the baby is born we could care less if that child has a home or food to eat.  If you don't believe me start listening to the people we are electing.  Compare what they say to what you know to be right.